Even if you are afraid you can bluff you are not afraid

Even that you know that you are bluffing and other people know that you are bluffing and you are scared to death, or other people know that you know that other people know that you are bluffing.  However this tension of paradoxical opposite has the effect of making you look brave, or that you are actually brave in this context, people will respect you.

This is bluffing in a advance degree. Actually everything is bluffing if you look at it correctly. You would only know this if you play poker.

I discover all this while I have been playing my cards not people

In poker, you dont play your cards, you play the people, you can even play without looking at your cards.

And the people player wins.

I realize that I have been only focusing at getting my technical knowledge high and I never play people. That is why i always get bullied and in turn my technical knowledge cannot gain too much because i need to divert my energy to manage my emotional turmoil.

you cannot play people only, you have to play cards also. 50 50 or 60 40

Everything you want to know how to interact with people you can learn in poker

-Use bullshit to fight bullshit. Use aggro to fight aggro.
-Use your rational brain instead of emotional brain. Read also Freedom from Fear by Peyton Quinn.

The art of the strategist : 10 essential principles for leading your company to victory by William A. Cohen.

Wow, i have read the book two years ago and forgot about it today i had a look at the content again, and all what I have writing in this treasure chest can be summarize in this below:

Like the dip = resource limitation = chapter 3
ROV and Oracle = Chapter 7

Chapter 1: The Fundamental Principle: Commit Fully to a Definite
 Objective
Chapter 2: Seize the Initiative and Keep It
Chapter 3: Economize to Mass Your Resources
Chapter 4: Use Strategic Positioning
Chapter 5: Do The Unexpected
Chapter 6: Keep Things Simple
Chapter 7: Prepare Multiple Simultaneous Alternatives 
Chapter 8: Take the Indirect Route to Your Objective
Chapter 9: Practice Timing and Sequencing
Chapter 10: Exploit Your Success

Garlic the wonder drug

super flu killer. cure cancers and chronic fatique syndrom, even can make a dead rabbit penis comes up

poker and war is about guestimate what the opponents wants to do not what you want to do

and other misc thoughts:

show sean photo about drinking water
push the extra mile
or instead of c++ can play with database immediately
download freedrive best books.
defend yourself by attacking back
muka tebal is a value not method, melay word sounds thicker
you have only one life, talke high risk. experience
a man got to do what a man got to do
get the steps right, set great striving first, then only paradoxical relaxation. relax your mind consicously while carrying out the task already set forward.
focus, remember you have limited time and energy.
i discover that i focus on things i dont like due to some reason. refocusing need some effort but it is a small effort compared to the disruptions of thinking on things i dont like.
note making put complex things down in perspecive and in a small model universe your brain can think about. 
use aggro to fight aggro, use crazy to fight crazy
dont care about small loses poker
compact light mobile nimble
break it down simplify note making
other thing beside oracle is ROV

After playing no limit texas holdem, now playing limit holdem is like taking candy from baby

A lot of times i dont have cards, but are guessing what the opponent is thinking, and are mimiking strong cards behavior. Limit holdem players are losers.

Ace on the river we have the pdf copy is a very good book. Please check freedrive.com and our family portable drive.

Instead of a explorer I would rather be a pirate

A pirate have both the best world of explorer and self defense.

Money = suffer, No money = more suffer

When have problems always go to internet forum to ask

When you have difficulties, always go to internet forums to ask for people opinion

here is a good one
http://forum.lowyat.net/

There are karate forums, oracle forums, physics forums, math forums, marine forums,

Stripping the gurus a very important book

So you wont waste your life as I did

free pdf here http://www.strippingthegurus.com/

I want my tombstone to read "Explorer"

The best way to get out of a bad mood to find new things to explore

It works everytime, the other stuff dont work like thinking what i have already achieve, or counting my blessings, or detachment, or mindfulness, or goal setting etc.


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Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!
Rocky Balboa

I hated every minute of training, but I said, "Don't quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion."
Muhammad Ali

The 30 million dollars callibration test

If i have 30 million dollars. I spent 3 million dollars screwing the most good looking girls, travelled the world 3 times, ate the best food, bought the best sport car. WIth 27 million dollars left and 30 years of time to spend, how would i spend the rest of my life?


I choose between wei qi, oracle, driving harley, poker. But all this thing i know, and it is boring.

So i may try number theory, quantum theory, or even ROV.

This is a calibration test to find out what you really want to do. I love you Sean and Ryan.

The all knowing invincible field of nature

There seems to be a invincible and invincible field of nature that knows what is your knowledge and what are you doing. I dont know how it works.

I have two big stage in life 17-35 is the year I believe in mystical Buddhist/hindu type enlightenment. I have trying to search for this eternal bliss stage using all the methods i can find, i forget  about my studies of mathematics and engineering, resulting in lost grades and low income career. In the end of the search, i concluded solidly this is all bullshit logically, practically and philosophically. Please read Stripping the Gurus by Geoffrey D. Falk. We have the PDF.


18 years wasted. My abstract world knowledge of mathematics, physics and engineerign is a waste land. And people seems to know this. I cannot find good jobs.

3-6 years ago is the early Renaissance where i delve into c++, game programming, poker and poetry.

Just last year is the year I called true Renaissance, i delve into advance calculus, partial differential equations, quantum mechanics, fluid mechanics, digital signal processing, computational fluid mechanics, western philosophy, embedded linux, and Oracle. Now probably going into ROV science.

And now somehow my company seems to think i am very smart, which probably i am, i am the only one who can do more more abstract programming and write hell good official letters with bombastic but paradoxically beautiful and subtle english. BUt it could be the field of all knowing nature.

Even if you dont tell people, people around seem to able to pick up what is on your mind, and your knowlege level.

I notice somehow I am evoving from my father

I just realize my knowledge crystal is to correct the two most big mistake my father makes and is in me, probably in you and ryan also

1. Being too feminine, too soft, dont know how to confront people
2. Being too lazy.

My two biggest knowledge crystal is:

1. Karate (possibly the book freedom from fear)
2. The dip by seth godin.

I have been all along trying to correct the sin our father and myself.

My father though totally selfish himself but is unaware, is constantly taken advantage by other people. This is where Poker comes in.

Oracle is the push into the abstract world which my father never venture into due to inbreed laziness.

Upload yourself to the abstract mathematics

Sean, Ryan, we are explorers, we can't stick still to a regular job. If we are not exploring, we are eaten up by everyday pettiness that reruns the same thing over and over again, hell.

Sean, Ryan, you have big eyes looking around always for intresting things, you two cant sit still.

So now I have mastered the material world, what's left is quantum mechanics, number theory, ROV sonars mathematics. Oracle i have eaten all and is finished.  I am staying in the KNOWN material world too long, I notice everyday I think about all the petty politics over and over again, which is not fun. Nature which is elvoving to more and more complex being, wants to evolve into the non material world, the abstract world, if I dont explore there nature will punish me with boredom and in turn flashback.

I will upload myself to the mathematics world. My body is living in this world, there is no escape. But my mind can either live in this world, or live in the abstracted world created by my mind and the minds of others. I can choose where I live. I choose to live in the abstract world, cause this world is too boring.

Nature rewards the most complex and evolve being. The more abstract your brain wiring, the more money you get generally. Look at the doctors, oracle dbas, physicist, the harder to know the job, the more money. Keep exploring and understanding, gradually you will come to the abstract world, a lot of people will stop evolving here, you continue to evolve into the abstract world to escape boredom, and nature will recognize this, the money will come naturally.

Take pain like a man

I think nowadays there are no more rites of manhood, and young men become like sissies, I am one.

In west Africa, young boys are whipped across the chest cutting the flesh, and have to smile to show they can handle pain like a man. The boys who cannot smile are considered weak and will not get girlfriends. The ability to handle pain and suffering is important in order to lead the tribe through hardships, as a man.

I have to be reeducated to be a man also; I joined a more traditional style karate school, the sensei holds a 5 feet stick and shout at the students to do horse stance until unbearable pain. If the student stood up, he will whack the student with the stick and shouts constant humiliation. For the more senior student, he will punch them on the chest and stomach, a karate punch with about 5% power is enough to knock out a layman. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MciLrVWcP8w

I was whacked on the butt countless times, and experienced excruciating pain punched on the solar plexus. But after that, hell, it was being hardened psychologically with steel. You got a problem ah? Come loh. Pain and suffering ah? Come loh! Things that bothered me before lessened a great deal.

More about the peyton quinn book

The book is based on Quinn's actual experiences as a high school math teacher, bouncer in a biker bar and creator of a successful software development firm. He is internationally recognized in the self-defense trainer and security industries for his research into the affects of adrenal stress conditioning. 

Biker, bouncer, math, software development = i like.


Whether dealing with a street thug or an overbearing boss at work, you're facing a bully. Your body and your mind will react to the threat. Unfortunately, many people involuntarily send the message that they are safe to attack. Learn how this process works so you can take control of this process and instead of signaling that you are a good victim, send messages that prevents conflict.

Freedom from Fear: Taking Back Control of Your Life and Dissolving Depression by Peyton Quinn

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The other very important book is The Dip.