I discover all this while I have been playing my cards not people

In poker, you dont play your cards, you play the people, you can even play without looking at your cards.

And the people player wins.

I realize that I have been only focusing at getting my technical knowledge high and I never play people. That is why i always get bullied and in turn my technical knowledge cannot gain too much because i need to divert my energy to manage my emotional turmoil.

you cannot play people only, you have to play cards also. 50 50 or 60 40