I could have hacked enlightenment 11:30pm May 03 here is the entire process

Tomorrow bring Ryan to new nanny, anxiety for Ryan, plus job stress.

Use the no self technique to meditate by imagining i have no self. No thinking method is much less effective than no self because self is the organizing principle that pushes thought generation
for self perservation. I have invented a new meditation system. The mind is similiar to a big city where there billions of objects interconnected to each other inside like people, phones, rats,
cars. The mind has more connections than atoms in the universe. But just take away some simple rules in the city like gravity, or the judicial law, and you the city system into chaos. The self is
the judicial law in the city, take away the law governing people and you take away the thought structure. And thus no self meditation can easily lead into no thought. The bhagavad gita system
of pulling back your senses like a turtle is no useful because there is still a self.

THen i go to bed but still stress. I use the NLP system "The structure of happiness" by xxxxxx; being unhappy is due to focusing on the internal self, and focusing narrowly, but being happy is
focusing on the external and focusing broadly eg like listening to all the sound outside the house. I use this technqiue, works, but the technique still requires effort and i notice strain.
Then i remember this parable by xxxxxx, see below. And i let go of control. And immediately i felt this great relieve, and the rush of excitement of going together with this river and great
excitement about life.


I then thought that life is a river. And this river somehow come into existence from nothingness. There must be organizing principal that brought all of this river into being including existence. I
came from this organizing principal and must go back to this organizing principal. The universe itself is life. And i am not afraid of death.

I also thought the planets is actually like atoms, life is actually a bunch of atoms interacting with each other like planets interact with each other. They are actually in the same oganizing
principal in a pyramid. Life is actually the organizing principal in a condense form. My ego self the mind is actually the planets interacting with each, my mind is actually the component of the universe, there is actually no separate me. The universe and i are like water though with different shape but are connected, the universe and i are one, there is no separate i. THe wars in this world are actually the same substance, the same organizing principal, interacting iwth each other like the waves on a sea. And i have no fear of death and no hatret or dislike. And when i
thought about my mistakes and shortcomings i cannot change, i thought of another more capable person take over me but he is actually the same substance, and i relax and dont care about
the mistake i made in work. I thought if anythign happend to my children, they are actually returning to the source and i have no fear.

I am in tremendous joy or bliss as they call it. I look at the clock it is 11:30pm.

THen i look outside at my eyelids from my eyes, "coming back to my body", before this i was looking a image in my mind about all the above, i felt a great anxiety, the usual stress coming back, what should i do for my work tomorrow, how should i handle Ryan.

I then thought one second ago i was so happy, knowing exactly what is the actual way the things are and have no fear. How come i am so stressed again? I analysis what have happened,
what is the difference of my state now and just a while ago. Then i found out that now i am using the first person perspective and before that i am using the third person perspective. During the bliss i was looking at myself from outside during the river parable (also the river parable could have tricked me into looking at a third person perspective), and the subsequent image about organizing principal and all are one universe are looking from a third person perspective.

I remember a DSP engineer paper on the debate of free will and determinism is actually the difference between the first person (free will) and the third person (determinism). I thought about reading NLP years ago about first person and thrid person perpective but never felt what it means. ANd all this years subconsicously i may have used the third person perspective to gain happiness; one some days my positive thinking method seems to work.


I realize tHe hindu system of no ego, detachment, oneness iwth the universe, everything is god, is actually from a third person perspective. Meditation training is actually the streightening of
the third person perspective perhaps by shutting down and activating certain brain centers that forms the thrid person perspective. The third person perspective is a 3d mind matrix that requires certain specific brain modules to be activated.

When i am using the thrid person perspecitve i am happy. when i am using the first person perspective i am in fear and stress.

Previously using nlp mehtod it did not work properly because i was straining to imaging the image details inthe third person perspective. Whereas now it work because i was unconsciously
usng the techque putting energy thinking about the vague image pattern and not empahsizing straining to see myself in third person

I tried to see myself in the thrid person perspective, and the original happiness came back, the same confidence and without fear.

it seems that animals are sually in the first person perspective, they are usually in fear when slaughtered. Human beings evolved the thrid person perpective as a result of evolution. Human
beings are aware of their death and need the third person perspective so they wont be stressed to death. But this third person perspective is not a illusion, because it is a result of evolution. Thoughts also memes is actually the direct result of the organizing principal which evolved
material existence, the base is the material existence the apex of the organzing principal pyramid is thougth, they are one and the same.


Came out for honey with crackers. Wife also cannot sleep. Write this down at 1am.

Now i finally understand NLP system. I finally understand how the difficult hindu system works. I understand how tao, christianity, kabalah system works. All because of using the thrid
person perspective. I understand why one someday my positive thinking methods work and some day they dont at all. I know how come motivation seminar works the day people attend them and after leaving the seminar the sytem dont work anymore, because the motivation
seminar puts the attendees into a third person perspective. Some books tried to explain why this fenome but did not find the key. The thrid and first person is the key. I have found a new key.