Super coincidence!

Just now your mother called to say I love you. She never does this. Then she saw a car license plate number 7794 matching her birthday. This is super coincidence!

Weiqi and proportions

Last two weeks i made the connection that weiqi is about proportions. It is like my eye for fashion. The proportions must be right. Rigid and softness must be balanced. There must be variaty.

Good proportions is beauty

So weiqi is a art creation like painting. That makes weiqi super fun. And now i suddenly know how to read weiqi book.

I dont know how this come about, probably karate, oracle or labview.

***

Labview is just like gardening. The lines of labview is like vines.

***

fighting is ugly. but if you do it efficiently. it is beautiful.

Knowledge Crystals 27 Mar 2010

Summary

You practice you skill to become the best and fight bullies naturally.

Deliberate practice.

At first walking, playing xbox, spelling, remembering english words is very difficult, but you practice daily.

Now it becomes as easy as breathing, you dont have to think about it.

So it should be like this for you chosen skill, like Oracle, Labview, mathematics, quantum theory.

Actually practicing is not hard work. You just spend time with it often like talking english words.

So fighting the bullies is like this.

At first you make mistakes but later it become easier and easier and you are insulting bullies like breathing.

Your brain is like a plasticine, you mold it to a shape by constant practicing.

You are what you are now because of deliberate practice applied upon you by school and parents.

Now you apply deliberate practice by your own will and create what you want.

Then you become best in the market, power and money flows to you.

Be willing to fight bullies

Know how to fight in degrees

Clown and diss and bluff your enermies

Be the best in the market

Mindfulness

Emotion counterbalancing

Can be in opposite polarities and paradoxical

Get use to difficult situations and overloading

Can be a bad person if required

Work hard to acquire a skill very few people can do

Know how to study complicated subject

Know how to research to solve problem

Have passion for what you do

Karate and poker

Game theory, ying and yang, chaos fractals, tuning

Know that people are not equal, and keep your arrogance

Work hard play hard

Dont believe in nirvana and no ego

The 50th Law by Robert Greene

How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.

The dip by Seth Godin

Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin

The Survivor personality by Al Siebert

Postural Alignment by Paul DArezzo

Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu.

Karate: Put iron rod in your back bone. It is your religion.

Poker: Secret of human interactions. Learn being bad is necessary for survival.

Deliberate practice: Keep on practicing until you become the best.

karate spirit is of great importance. No matter who wins or loses, dies or stays alive, - most important is training, process, fight and the "Way" itself. When you are free from idea of winning and losing, you are immersed in the spirit of Budo and enjoy every moment of the Way, irrespective of winning or losing. Hear these words and you will become great karateka.

{BOOKS YOU MUST READ}

The 50th Law by Robert Greene

How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.

The dip by Seth Godin

Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin

The Survivor personality by Al Siebert

Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu.

The above we have articles in freedrive.com, portable harddrive and print outs.

{War}

How to manipulate the manipulator

The 33 strategies of war by Robert Greene

Beyond Revenge

The Art of Strategy

{Shame and Covert war}

Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu

The pimp game by Mickey Royal

Emotional vampires by Albert Bernstein

How to save your marriage without talking about it by Steven Stosny

I dont want to talk about it by Terence Real

How full is your bucket by Tom Rath

Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men by Lundy Bancroft

Get anyone to do anything by David Lieberman

{Be the best in the Market}

The dip by Seth Godin

Jack Trout on strategy by Jack Trout

Deliberate practice, Talent is overated by Geoff Colvin

The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr.

The now habit by Neil Fiore

Play by Stuart Brown

Free play by Setphen Nachmanovitch

{No new age bullshit}

Stripping the gurus by Geoffrey D. Falk

Top Secret: The Truth Behind Today's Pop Mysticisms by Robert M. Price

{Tech books}

The poker mindset by Matthew Hilger

Heads-Up No-Limit Hold 'em by Collin Moshman

Every hand reviewed by Gus Hansen.

Poker vide in youtube like High Stakes Poker

Differential Equations - by Paul Blanchard available in Singapore library.

Div, Grad, Curl, and All That: An Informal Text on Vector Calculus, by H. M Schey

Who Is Fourier?: A Mathematical Adventure by Lex Tokyo, Yo Sakakibara, and Alan Gleason

Understanding digital signal processing by Richard Lyons

Deep down things: The breath taking beauty of particle physics by Bruce Schumm

Fearless Symmetry

http://www.jbmelectronics.com/product/tcp.htm on networking also available in our portable drive

Computer networking first step by Wendell Odom

Networking, a beginner guide by Bruce Hallberg

Linux System Administration by Vicki Stanfield singapore libraries

UNIX Systems Programming by Kay A. Robbins

C Programming Language by Brian W. Kernighan, Dennis M. Ritchie

C++ without fear by Brian Overland Get it on freedrive.com user login as your mom.

Modern Operating Systems by Andrew Tanenbaum

Counter hack by Edward Skoudis

Head first SQL by Head First SQL by Lynn Beighley

Easy Oracle PL/SQL programming by John Garmany

Oracle 11g for dummies

Sams Teach yourself PLSQL in 21 days

Oracle SQL Tuning by Dan Tow

The art and science of Oracle Performance tuning

Oracle Performance Tuning for 10gR2 by Gavin JT Powell

Oracle SQL high performance tuning by Guy Harrison

If you dont work what would you do?

The good point of technology is once you know it you will never lose it.

Face fear, conquer fear, be feared.

If he can do it, why cant you do it?

BE WILLING TO FIGHT BULLIES

Always fight back bullies.

After you get bullied would you go to therapy to cure yourself and get bullied again tomorrow?

No psychological therapy or religion can heal your anger or shame.

Only fight back the bully can heal your shame.

Bullies only bully people that are afraid to fight back.

Bullies will stop if you fight back even if you are weaker than the bully.

This is the iron rule: bully would not bully the person who fights back.

People seldom bully physically. They bully psychologically.

They try to shame you in subtle ways. To make you get depression.

Pride is like oxigen, you need it to live. Enemies attacks this.

You must have no shame. You must face as thick as the wall of china.

You must not let the enemy affect your emotions, this is the aim of the manipulators.

On the other hand you must affect your enemy emotion actively. Attack is the best defense.

Bully is actually attacking.

Attacking is a form of control of you.

You take away the bully control by fighting back and the bully lost interest.

Bully only want easy meat. Not difficult meat.

It is also more difficult to be bullied when you are the best in what you do.

By giving into the bully, billy taught Ryan that his intimidating behavior was okay. Standing up to him early, even if it meant being beaten up, would have been better than speending a whole year in pain. Almost all bullies pick on people who wont fight back. They use intimidation and are rarely interested in real conflict. – The Survivor Personality

When you submit to an aggressors or to an unjust and imposssible situation. You do not buy yourself any real peace. You encourage people to go further, to take more from you, to use you for their own purposes. They sense your lack of self respect and they feel justified in mistreating you. You must develop the opposite - afighting stance that comes from deep within and cannot be shaken. You force some respect.

This comes from your attitude - fearless and alwyas prepared to fight. It radiates outward and can be read in your amnner without you having to speak a word. By a paradoxical alw of human nature, trying to please people less will make them ore likely in the long run to respect and treat you better.

Theis inner strength, however, does not come naturally. What is required is some experience. This means that in your daily life you must assert yourself more than usual. – The 50th Law

KNOW HOW TO FIGHT IN DEGREES

But you can't always start all out war with bullies in a group.

Sometimes you still need to be in cooperation with a group.

So slowly invade the bully degree by degree using teasing, jokes and gentle insult.

Sometimes you have to use the hard way.

But know that a lot of times respect can only be gained by inviduals using fight.

The process is this, fight first and only corperate and become friends.

First hot war, then cold war, then friends. This is the usual process.

When you fight, always say "you".

Put the focus on the enemy.

Push the enemy ball back to him.

Never become defensive and put the focus on yourself.

THe enemy tactic is to put focus on you.

Read any books by David Liebermann.

ALways attack the bully.

If you only defend, the bully control your movement and attack you at will.

When you forget about defense and attack the enemy even when he is attacking you, you control the enemy.

This is just like chess.

Use the pimps method.

When you are hanging out, come up with something to say to every person in the vicinity.

Be ready to 'clown' someone if they question your pimpitude.

Always use like or as during the 'diss'.

Only bring someone's moms in to the insult if you are ready to throw hands.

CLOWN AND DISS AND BLUFF YOUR ENEMIES

If you play poker you will discover all bullying is a form of bluffing.

You counterbluff the enemy back.

You can also use bluff to boost your self confidence.

Bluff means pretending you are more powerful than you really are.

All manipulators action is actually bluffing.

When they bluff you, you counter bluff the manipulators back.

You can even bluff knowing that the enemy knows you are bluffing. This is call thick face bluff.

Poker teaches bluffing well.

Know the enemy is bluffing

Then the fake power of the enemy is exposed.

BE THE BEST IN THE MARKET

WORK HARD TO HAVE A SKILL FEW PEOPLE CAN DO

You have to be the best in the market.

You need to have a skill that few people can do it.

Skills like programming, medicine, engineering, drawing, business etc.

Getting these skills requires hard work and withstand boredom.

That is why few people can do it.

And the money will go to the person who is the best in the skill.

To be good in the skill you have to work at it spending long hours.

People want the best.

You don’t have to be good in a lot of thing.

But you have to be the best in one or two things.

Then only people will give money for your service.

You need to put in hard work and withstand boredom of learning and practicing to become the best.

But the suffering required is much less than the suffering of being average and don’t have money.

Just watch the old janitors to see how much suffering they have.

You must study a complicated subject that few people can stand the boredom to master it.

This is the gateway that keep other people out.

Like dentistry or Oracle or Digital signal processing or Labview.

You have to have passion with the skill.

Play with the skill.

Dont care about other people, be with the skill constantly.

It has to be mystical.

The skill has to grow organically, slowly like wine making.

Only long term being with the skill can the skill grow strong and firm.

Dont be afraid being slower than others, being slow means you are growing the skill stronger than the rest.

EMOTIONAL COUNTERBALANCE

You must learn the art of counterbalance. When you are fearful, force yourself to act in a bolder fashion than usual. When you feel inordinate hate, find some object of love or admiration that you can focus on with intensity. One strong emotion tends to cancel out the other and help you move past it. – The 50th Law

The biggest problem we boys faced are shame and fear. For fear you can pretend to be bold. The brain is actually a virtual reality simulator, and you live it in, you cannot live in reality directly. The brain cannot distinguish pretending and real. When you are pretending to lie down on top of a mountain, the brain thinks it is really there. So pretend to be bold = force your self to be bold = real bravery. People usually pay their awe and respect to bold people.

The other super emotion is love. When you love something, your parasympathetic system opens up and your body is restored to balance. You must keep the sympathetic and parasympathetic system activated together. If only sympathetic fighting system only throughout the day, you will burn out. The best antidote to shame and fear is the feeling of love. Find something to love, and forgive. Learn from the Christians. BUT simultaneously kill your enemies with a sword.

CAN BE IN OPPOSITE PARADOXICAL POLARITY

Survivors puzzled me at first. They are serious and humoours, hard working and lazy, self confident and self critical. They are not one way or the other, they are both one way and the other.

Sensitive-tough, strong-gentle, cowardly-courageous, mature-playful, humorous- serious, distant-friendly, self confident-self critical, trusting-cautious, dependent- independent, impulsive-well organized, happy-discontent, cooperative-rebellious, proud -humble, selfish-unselfish, lazy-hardwworking, involved-detached, logical-creative, calm-emotional,shy-bold, loving-angry,consistent-unpredictable,messy-net,optimistic- pessimistic - The Survivor Personality

Men’s biggest weakness is shame.

And bullies use subtle psychological manipulation to invoke shame in you.

You counter shame by giving unconditional compassion for your mistakes and short coming.

This is in accordance to ying and yang theory, where the weak ying actually nourishes the strong yang, yang cannot operate alone.

So you are not paralyzed by shame or fear.

In this world there is ying and yang. War is yang. Love and forgiveness is ying.

Yang and ying must compliment and help each other. Ying will nourish yang and help yang become strong.

But however mindfulness is probably much more effective.

Every person has some degree of personality disorder.

Each personality disorder is polarity. You need to choose the right polarity for situations.

For instance if you have too much stress, you are in too much obsessive compulsive disorder,

you need to balance by using anti social personality disorder.

If you lack self confidence having codependent personality disorder, you need to put in more narsicissitic personality disorder.

Read the book Emotional Vampires by.

GET USE TO DIFFCULT SITUATIONS AND USE OVERLOADING TO BECOME STRONGER

The brain is like a plastic like. To get to the top, you need to master a lot of difficult situation, else you will always be a loser and poor. I have seen this over and over again in engineering work, there is always gate to separate the tough guys from the weaklings.

The only way to be tough is by getting use to difficult people and situations, don’t avoid it.

And to make your mind and body strong you use overloading. In Shitoryu karate, the coach push you to your limit and then some more to make your muscle and nervous system stronger.

Overloading is actually deliberate practice. Research shows to be expert in any field requires 10,000 hours of practice.

CAN BE A BAD PERSON IF REQUIRED

Only evil can fight evil.

Watch "Chronicals of Riddick" movies.

Or imitate the vampires or other underworld beings.

Thick face, black heart. Imitate the heros

Thick face means you don't care about shame and moral. It is your value.

Thick face black heart is a very useful knife if you can use it.

How to have Thick Face Black heart, you cannot use any visualization technique.

Remember instead the hero story you have read and activate your imitation reflex.

The best thick face story is the Chinese King Liu Pei in Thick Face Black Heart book.

Imagine you are one of the thick face hero not affected by difficult enviroment.

Or Thick Black Theory book.

To win you have to manipulate people. There is no choice.

KNOW HOW TO STUDY COMPLICATED SUBJECTS

How to study a complicated book:

Scan the book first.

Know what is the goal of each chapter.

Get understanding. Then dig into the details.

Write what you don’t understand on a notebook.

If you get stuck in a book, find another good book.

Read good beginner books first that gives a intuitive understanding.

Find the good books in Amazon reviews. It is very important you find a few good beginner book to read.

For subjects like Oracle, quantum theory, number mathematics, differential equations,

digital signal processing, fluid mechanics. Few people can understand.

Always find and read a beginner book first to build concept.

Never start with a reference book first. It will kill your passion.

A complicated subject is just a lot of small easy subjects combine together.

To study a thick book, get an overall idea first by reading quickly through the book,

read the table of contents, the introduction at each chapter. Don't go into the details.

Then Focus on the goal of the book, every human endeavor is trying to achieve something, if you know what is the target the details is easy.

Then you read the details to get an understanding.

Facts you dont understand write it down on a notebook for later solving.

Then you read deeper into the details.

Then You refer to other books for facts you don't understand.

You refer a lot of books and find a few best books that give intuitive understanding.

Read through the passage a few times even if you dont understand it.

Slow is smooth, smooth is fast. Like wine brewing.

Don't think that abstract science is dry and boring.

Math or Oracle is actually a higher evolution of nature into the non material world.

Looking at math pattern is the sameas looking at a forest.

Reading a luminous math book that switch on the light in a dark room is the greatest joy.

The patterns are beautiful. It is a different world only much more beautiful than the material world.

Spend your time in the non material beauty by reading math books.

Exploring math is like exploring into a beautiful forest.

Upload yourself into the non material world.

Practice, practice, practice -A great samurai warrior, this is call drilling and is most important aspect of gaining technology.

Being the best is not difficult.

As long as you know how to read and write you can be the expert in any field like Oracle or number theory;

learning these is easier than English.

You need to be constant be with it. Let it soak in to you like language osmosis.You have to love it.

You dont have to criticize yourself for learning slow or listen to other people.

Because all brain neurons have the same molecules and require the same time for all humans to rewire itself.

We are slower learners compared to other people, but once we learned something we are much better than other people.

Refer to our programming, karate, and math.

It seems like our brain performs comprehensive rewiring and it takes more time than other people.

Good wine need a long time to brew, you cannot rush it, and the wine we brew is the best.

So don’t worry, start slow, don’t care about other people, enjoy yourself in your object like Oracle,

know the beauty of it, this is what life all about.

HANDLE BIG PROJECTS

Break it down to smaller parts.

Pretend that the job is easy.

You only have to do it 80% perfectly.]

Perform a task to 80 percent perfection.

If you aim for 100 percent, you will have trouble starting and fear of failure.

Push your limits. go outside of human norm.

This make your stronger because your brain is plastic.

Reframe fear as a challenge. The bigger the fear, the bigger the excitement.

Break a big task down to smaller parts.

Any complicated task is consist of many smaller very easy to understand components.

If not up then it is down, if not left then it is right.

You just have to spend time with it be with it.

After you break down the easy part then just focus on the small easy part until you solved it.

Dont look at other small easy parts.

Do one thing at a time.

Always go back to basic. Refer kihon in karate.

The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr. The now habit by Neil Fiore

HAVE PASSION FOR WHAT YOU DO

To be very good in what you do, you have to work hard.

But asking you to work hard is hard to motivate you.

Having passion for the work is much better.

When you have passion for something, working hard is automatic, and the hardships doesnt seem to exist.

Dont falsely believe you need to find your true passion.

Actually anything can be your passion. You just need to know enough of the thing and you will come to love it.

You have to study the thing first and know a bit about it so it can become your passion.

Then you want to know more and more about the thing.

Passion is when you want to be a master of the thing, a guru of the thing.

Like dentistry, or Oracle, or Labview.

GAME THEORY, YING YANG, CHAOS FRACTALS, TUNING

This world is all about war and getting the upper hand. Sooner you know this, the better.

Why conflict all of the time? Study every game theory book you know.

Polarites means opposites in chinese ying and yang theory.

Like good and bad, lazy and hard work, lies and truth, hard and soft.

YOu must accept all the polarities and dont reject any.

You must be able to use all the polarities because they are needed in all situations.

Lacking one polarity even a bad one is like walking without left leg.

You need to know how much proportion of ying and yang in any situation.

This is done by tuning. Like how you tune a car or karate.

In chaos theory, the universe is made of self similar objects.

This is call fractals.

For example a country ministry is just like subpersonalities in your mind.

Your personal boundary is just like the border of a country.

Your friends war is just war of countries.

Use fractals as metaphors to understand a lot of conflicts.

Country is a good fractal comparison to inter human relationship.

How much black to use, how much white to use. This need tuning. Just like tuning a car.

Or tuning oracle, or tuning your karate. Find the best combination that can combat the situation.

KARATE, POKER, DELIBERATE PRACTICE

Karate: Put iron rod in your back bone. It is your religion.

Poker: Secret of human interactions. Learn being bad is necessary for survival.

Deliberate practice: Keep on practicing until you become the best.

KNOW HOW TO RESEARCH TO SOLVE PROBLEMS

For any problem you have.

Use search engine like Google, Yahoo!.

Go to internet forums to ask any questions you have.

Use amazon search engine and review to find a good book.

Use Singapore library search engine.

Have an edge over other people.

Use internet search engine like Google or Yahoo.

Ask questions about life in internet forums like Oracle forum or Low Yatt forum.

Use Amazon.com search engine and type in the book related to your problems.

Read the reviews in Amazon, it has a lot of details about the book.

Use Singapore library search engine to find the good book in Amazon. Reserve the book.

Search the rapidshare or bit torrent for free copy of the book.

DON’T BELIEVE IN NIRVANA OR HAPPY FOREVER SPIRITUAL BULLSHIT

Don’t think that if you meditate enough, you reach nirvana and don’t need for money, status or anything.

This world you need all of this, just read the stories of famous gurus conning their disciples.

This world is about half struggle, half relax. Don’t struggle all the time, don’t relax all the time.

Buddhism, Hinduism, New Age has this bullshit about no ego enlightenment.

I spent 20 years searching for it and wasted my time.

The world is built up by game theory and the dip, no ego cannot survive at all in this world.

Read the hypocritical life of spiritual gurus in Stripping the Gurus book.

No self healing bullshit also.

If world war II going on, soldiers are raping women, and you do not defend yourself by praying to god or deep breathing.

BE AGGRO, USE AGGRO TO FIGHT AGGRO – THEN ONLY YOU WIN POKER AND LIFE

BE BOLD BE CRAZY

Aggro means hyper aggressive, not only aggressive but very aggressive. Usually when you have life problems this is because other people is aggressive and invading you. Then you be even more aggressive than them.

This is how you win in poker.

You also have to be bold, be a bit crazy. Then people will respect you. Then people will secretly admire you. You have to step out from the norm of society to have power.

BODY

Usually throughout my life, psychology tech fails, but Vit B complex always works to lift out of anxiety or depression.

The problem with Vit B is it will tense up the shoulder or neck and cause inflammation. And sole throat and flu.

Muscle knot massage for shoulder pain. Press on all over your neck, scalp and shoulder to find pain when press down.

The bone at scalp and shoulder blades are usually

the muscle knot areas. When find the painful spot, press down hard for half a minute, the muscle knot can only relax in great pressure.

The other one is heatiness cause by Vit B, drink herbal tea to counterbalance this effect.

Eat Vit B complex every 3 days to avoid inflammation or overheating.

Garlic cures cancer, penis erection even for dead rabbit, chronic fatigue

Vit B gives energy.

Muscle knots cure by finding painful spot and pressing hard on the spot for 1 minute to relax muscle .

Tumo meditation: if wars , this meditation allows you not to eat for months. Read Nepal Buddha boy in internet.

If you have cancer, remember Chi Kung.

Sometimes your mental problems are probably just due to lack of water. Trying drinking water first.

SAYINGS

If you dont work what would you do?

The good point of technology is once you know it you will never lose it.

Face fear, conquer fear, be feared.

If he do it, why cant you do it?

WORK HARD PLAY HARD

It seems like after playing hard you can work hard. Go to movies, disco, camping, chess tournaments, read quantum physics books. Hide for a while. Ying and yang. Then only you can restore your energy. The ying restores the yang.

REMEMBER WE ARE SMARTER THAN MOST PEOPLE

After I read a article about the difference of IQ between the average and mensa, I have a radical change of view. I no longer care much about other people's behavior because I am likely a mensa and come to think of it, other people's behavior is usually quite irrational, the poorer or lower class they are the more irrational.

I notice most stupid people generally say things that is not according to reality. And we feel a discomfort with their words because it is bs. Whereas smartest people usually say words that is according to reality and brings us comfort. Reality is beauty. Sometimes a dumber person than us is more proficient at technical things, but that doesnt depends on intelligence but their exposure to the subject.

The impression of people with our mensa IQ of average people (most of the people we met have average IQ) is that of a average person impression of a retard. And usually the average person cannot comprehend our behavior, they usually would think it is strange. It is just like a earth worm cannot understand the behavior of a eagle. So you usually need to ignore the comments of average people and focus your efforts to be the best in a field. Then no matter what they say, they still need your service, and usually you lord over them, and can bully them at will.

Biologically we are hard wired to attack only the weaker object and avoid the stronger one perceived by us. The object could be a enemy or a complicated subject like mathematics or programming.

Stress is fear actually.

When we perceive the other object as easy or weaker or stupider, we no longer feel fear to do work.

That is why arrogance is needed. All the seven sins are needed. If we destroy arrogance and embrace too much humility, then confidence the brother of arrogance will likely be destroyed together. We need both humility and arrogance.

Arrogance is a force that allows us to do difficult task and kill the enemy. What I did wrong was I renounced arrogance because I saw its problems. However this brought me timidity and fear and laziness.

I also believed in the idealistic concept that everyone is equal as evocated in self help and new age. This brought me distruction of my weapons to fight in the real world.

Never reject the blackness in the ying yang symbol. Never reject any opposite. Keep all the opposite so you will be strong.

Pretend the difficult task is easy. Pretend the enemy is stupiter and can be ignored. Likely the task is easy. Likely the enemy is dumber.

Pretend is a form of bluff. You try to bluff the universe and win.

people detects your arrogance level and sense if you can be bullied.

if you have arrogance usually bully wont come near you

arrogance is your boundary

arrogance is more important than mindfulness

mindfulness is just a temporary balm

too much arrogance is bad because nobody will cooperate with you

so use tuning

You have to manipulate people there is no choice

MINDFULNESS

It is the best stress buster, hands down.

It is the activation of prefrontal lope and gives you a center not affected by emotions.

Whenever there is threat, we will automatically have emotions.

Emotion is a warning signal hardwired to body.

However it is damaging to body. We need emotion as warning sign but cannot let it affect us.

Emotion is linked to the limbic system, read "A General Theory of Love".

Prefrontal lope is another module of the brain and is separate from limbic system.

We can shift our self locus there.

Mindfulness is actually activation of will power. And without it, we are slaves to natural instincts like fear, stress, anger, nervousness etc. It is hard to get things done when there is difficulty because we are controlled by impulses.

Mindfulness frees us to do what we want to do irrespective of the obstacles and pain in our way.

Mindfulness however must work together with fight your enemies and be the best in your work. It cannot work alone.

Mindfulness allows you do something even if you have fear.

However I am not sure which one is more effective, emotional counterbalancing or mindfulness. Which one is easier to perform and allow to perform it practically.

Knowledge Crystals 09 March 2010

Fight fear

I realize so many mulling of my defeats and humiliation is due to fear. Fear if I dont mull enough, i will be destroyed.

Most of the fear are irrational. And worst thing is it weakens me, make me ineffective and easy to be bullied.

Most of our game is chicken game. Our goal is to win the chicken game.

When i fight fear constantly, I win the chicken game, and somehow my demeanor changes and people sense this and they will fear and will not dare to bully so easily. Respect is actually a form of fear.

And somehow i will be more successful.

Of course something i must fear. I cannot banish fear totally. The trick is to keep both opposites. DOnt discard any. Use tuning to find the right proportions. (actually the Go board game is all about tuning)

Fight fear and work hard. Two success law of the universe.

PRETEND THE OTHER IS LOWER CLASS

After I read a article about the difference of IQ between the average and mensa, I have a radical change of view. I no longer care much about other people's behavior because I am likely a mensa and come to think of it, other people's behavior is usually quite irrational, the poorer or lower class they are the more irrational.

Biologically we are hard wired to attack only the weaker object and avoid the stronger one perceived by us. The object could be a enemy or a complicated subject like mathematics or programming.

Stress is fear actually.

When we perceive the other object as easy or weaker or stupider, we no longer feel fear to do work.

That is why arrogance is needed. All the seven sins are needed. If we destroy arrogance and embrace too much humility, then confidence the brother of arrogance will likely be destroyed together. We need both humility and arrogance.

Arrogance is a force that allows us to do difficult task and kill the enemy. What I did wrong was I renounced arrogance because I saw its problems. However this brought me timidity and fear and laziness.

I also believed in the idealistic concept that everyone is equal as evocated in self help and new age. This brought me distruction of my weapons to fight in the real world.

Never reject the blackness in the ying yang symbol. Never reject any opposite. Keep all the opposite so you will be strong.

Pretend the difficult task is easy. Pretend the enemy is stupiter and can be ignored. Likely the task is easy. Likely the enemy is dumber.

Pretend is a form of bluff. You try to bluff the universe and win.

"If he can do it, why cant you do it?"

Free play - Add on 19 March 2010

I just watched Hell Kitchen. And to be the best, to work hard, overloading yourself to be strongest, to fight, to compete, honestly makes life very ugly, and destroy the thing we love. And we will die of stress.

But yet if we dont become the best, we will be more miserable. So what is the solution?

Free play is the solution. You decide to be the best, to overload yourself. Then you do the overloading and the fight. Then, this is the key point: paradoxically the next step is you dont care about the result but you continue to work. You forget about the original goals you set and other people. This is playing, doing something yet dont care about the result. But it is different from playing, because it is more disciplined than playing. So two opposites polarities come together. Joy come out of fighting and hard work.

The timing is important. You set aside each day a few hours to forget about your goals. Pretend to forget about it. Then you play the thing.

The book free play by Stephen Nachmanovitch says you must yourself out of everyday by playing, it is an mystical act.

"

"Though love is a material act (whether sexual love, friendship, parenting, or any other kind of devotion, love is always an act), it lifts us out of the ordinary world into a kind of mystic participation with one another. We tune, more and more finely, our capacity to sense the other person's subtleties. We are willing to be infinitely patient and persevering. In a sense, genius equals compassion, because both involve the infinite capacity for taking pains. The great lovers, the great world reformers and peacemakers, are those who have passed beyond their individual ego demands and are able to hear the cries of the world. The motive is not self-gratification, but gratification of a bigger being of which we are part. Genius and compassion signify a transcendent, painstaking thoroughness and attention to detail--taking the trouble to take care of our body and mind and everyone else's body and mind.

This is exactly what we do when we set out on the adventure of loving another human being. We learn, the easy or the hard, to cultivate receptivity and mutual, expressive emancipation." "

Knowledge Crystals 8

09 March 2010

PRIMARY SKILL

ONLY TWO THINGS IN LIFE: FIGHT BACK BULLIES & WORK HARD TO BE THE BEST

All your problems are when you are not doing the above.

Imagine you are in a cave with some people and somebody bullies you everyday.

Imagine you are not the best in some skill and the cave people don't need you and you dont get food.

These are big problems.

No therapy or religion or self help books can help you.

You must fight the bullies and be the best in a skill.

Then only you can find happiness.

THis is the only way. All other ways are self deluding.

FIGHT BACK BULLIES

Always fight back bullies.

After you get bullied would you go to therapy to cure yourself and get bullied again tomorrow?

No psychological therapy or religion can heal your anger or shame.

Only fight back the bully can heal your shame.

Bullies only bully people that are afraid to fight back.

Bullies will stop if you fight back even if you are weaker than the bully.

This is the iron rule: bully would not bully the person who fights back.

People seldom bully physically. They bully psychologically.

They try to shame you in subtle ways. To make you get depression.

Pride is like oxigen, you need it to live. Enemies attacks this.

You must have no shame. You must face as thick as the wall of china.

You must not let the enemy affect your emotions, this is the aim of the manipulators.

On the other hand you must affect your enemy emotion actively. Attack is the best defense.

Bully is actually attacking.

Attacking is a form of control of you.

You take away the bully control by fighting back and the bully lost interest.

Bully only want easy meat. Not difficult meat.

It is also more difficult to be bullied when you are the best in what you do.

FIGHT BACK IN DEGREE USING TEASING, SARCASM, AND INSULTS

But you can't always start all out war with bullies in a group.

Sometimes you still need to be in cooperation with a group.

So slowly invade the bully degree by degree using teasing, jokes and gentle insult.

Sometimes you have to use the hard way.

But know that a lot of times respect can only be gained by inviduals using fight.

The process is this, fight first and only corperate and become friends.

First hot war, then cold war, then friends. This is the usual process.

When you fight, always say "you".

Put the focus on the enemy.

Push the enemy ball back to him.

Never become defensive and put the focus on yourself.

THe enemy tactic is to put focus on you.

Read any books by David Liebermann.

ALways attack the bully.

If you only defend, the bully control your movement and attack you at will.

When you forget about defense and attack the enemy even when he is attacking you, you control the enemy.

This is just like chess.

Use the pimps method.

When you are hanging out, come up with something to say to every person in the vicinity.

Be ready to 'clown' someone if they question your pimpitude.

Always use like or as during the 'diss'.

Only bring someone's moms in to the insult if you are ready to throw hands.

WORK HARD TO BE THE BEST IN THE MARKET

You have to be the best in the market.

You need to have a skill that few people can do it.

Skills like programming, medicine, engineering, drawing, business etc.

Getting these skills requires hard work and withstand boredom.

That is why few people can do it.

And the money will go to the person who is the best in the skill.

To be good in the skill you have to work at it spending long hours.

People want the best.

You don’t have to be good in a lot of thing.

But you have to be the best in one or two things.

Then only people will give money for your service.

You need to put in hard work and withstand boredom of learning and practicing to become the best.

But the suffering required is much less than the suffering of being average and don’t have money.

Just watch the old janitors to see how much suffering they have.

You must study a complicated subject that few people can stand the boredom to master it.

This is the gateway that keep other people out.

Like dentistry or Oracle or Digital signal processing or Labview.

You have to have passion with the skill.

Play with the skill.

Dont care about other people, be with the skill constantly.

It has to be mystical.

The skill has to grow organically, slowly like wine making.

Only long term being with the skill can the skill grow strong and firm.

Dont be afraid being slower than others, being slow means you are growing the skill stronger than the rest.

Keep all the opposites

Good-bad, lazy-hardworking, attach-detach, sensitive-thick face, smart-stupid. Opposites are like opposite muscles in your legs, both are needed for walking, one cannot be stronger than the other else you cannot stand straight.

Read the book The Survivor Personality, Postural Alignment, and The 50th Law.

MINDFULNESS

Buddhist style mindfulness is the best way to handle fear, anger, shame and other emotiions.

You have the emotion but it wont affect you.

It unites your will power and you have energy to confront.

It is your prefrontal cortex in action, your will power.

You dont have to be mindful all of the time, just when you are in trouble.

BOOKS YOU MUST READ

The 50th Law by Robert Greene

How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.

The dip by Seth Godin

Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin

The Survivor personality by Al Siebert
Postural Alignment by Paul DArezzo

Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu.

The above we have articles in freedrive.com, portable harddrive and print outs.

SECONDARY SKILL

3 PRACTICES YOU MUST DO

Karate: Put iron rod in your back bone. It is your religion.

Poker: Secret of human interactions. Learn being bad is necessary for survival.

Deliberate practice: Keep on practicing until you become the best.

WHAT THIS WORLD IS MADE OF: GAME THEORY, POLARITES, FRACTALS

This world is all about war and getting the upper hand. Sooner you know this, the better.

Why conflict all of the time? Study every game theory book you know.

Polarites means opposites in chinese ying and yang theory.

Like good and bad, lazy and hard work, lies and truth, hard and soft.

YOu must accept all the polarities and dont reject any.

You must be able to use all the polarities because they are needed in all situations.

Lacking one polarity even a bad one is like walking without left leg.

You need to know how much proportion of ying and yang in any situation.

This is done by tuning. Like how you tune a car or karate.

In chaos theory, the universe is made of self similar objects.

This is call fractals.

For example a country ministry is just like subpersonalities in your mind.

Your personal boundary is just like the border of a country.

Your friends war is just war of countries.

Use fractals as metaphors to understand a lot of conflicts.

Country is a good fractal comparison to inter human relationship.

YOU CAN ONLY FIGHT BAD GUYS BY BEING A BAD GUY

Only evil can fight evil.

Watch "Chronicals of Riddick" movies.

Or imitate the vampires or other underworld beings.

THICK FACE BLACK HEART : IMITATE THE HEROS

Thick face means you don't care about shame and moral. It is your value.

Thick face black heart is a very useful knife if you can use it.

How to have Thick Face Black heart, you cannot use any visualization technique.

Remember instead the hero story you have read and activate your imitation reflex.

The best thick face story is the Chinese King Liu Pei in Thick Face Black Heart book.

Imagine you are one of the thick face hero not affected by difficult enviroment.

Or Thick Black Theory book.

SHAME AND SELF COMPASSION

Men’s biggest weakness is shame.

And bullies use subtle psychological manipulation to invoke shame in you.

You counter shame by giving unconditional compassion for your mistakes and short coming.

This is in accordance to ying and yang theory, where the weak ying actually nourishes the strong yang, yang cannot operate alone.

So you are not paralyzed by shame or fear.

In this world there is ying and yang. War is yang. Love and forgiveness is ying.

Yang and ying must compliment and help each other. Ying will nourish yang and help yang become strong.

But however mindfulness is probably much more effective.

BALANCE YOUR PERSONALITY DISORDER

Every person has some degree of personality disorder.

Each personality disorder is polarity. You need to choose the right polarity for situations.

For instance if you have too much stress, you are in too much obsessive compulsive disorder,

you need to balance by using anti social personality disorder.

If you lack self confidence having codependent personality disorder, you need to put in more narsicissitic personality disorder.

Read the book Emotional Vampires by.

BLUFF

If you play poker you will discover all bullying is a form of bluffing.

You counterbluff the enemy back.

You can also use bluff to boost your self confidence.

Bluff means pretending you are more powerful than you really are.

All manipulators action is actually bluffing.

When they bluff you, you counter bluff the manipulators back.

You can even bluff knowing that the enemy knows you are bluffing. This is call thick face bluff.

Poker teaches bluffing well.

Know the enemy is bluffing

Then the fake power of the enemy is exposed.

NO NIRVANA OR HAPPY FOREVER SPIRITUAL BULLSHIT

Don’t think that if you meditate enough, you reach nirvana and don’t need for money, status or anything.

This world you need all of this, just read the stories of famous gurus conning their disciples.

This world is about half struggle, half relax. Don’t struggle all the time, don’t relax all the time.

Buddhism, Hinduism, New Age has this bullshit about no ego enlightenment.

I spent 20 years searching for it and wasted my time.

The world is built up by game theory and the dip, no ego cannot survive at all in this world.

Read the hypocritical life of spiritual gurus in Stripping the Gurus book.

No self healing bullshit also.

If world war II going on, soldiers are raping women, and you do not defend yourself by praying to god or deep breathing.

INCREASE YOUR ADVANTAGE, BE AWARE OF YOUR DISADVANTAGE

This is the only rule of the game.

HOW TO STUDY A COMPLICATED BOOK

Scan the book first.

Know what is the goal of each chapter.

Get understanding. Then dig into the details.

Write what you don’t understand on a notebook.

If you get stuck in a book, find another good book.

Read good beginner books first that gives a intuitive understanding.

Find the good books in Amazon reviews. It is very important you find a few good beginner book to read.

RESEARCH

For any problem you have.

Use search engine like Google, Yahoo!.

Go to internet forums to ask any questions you have.

Use amazon search engine and review to find a good book.

Use Singapore library search engine.

Have an edge over other people.

Use internet search engine like Google or Yahoo.

Ask questions about life in internet forums like Oracle forum or Low Yatt forum.

Use Amazon.com search engine and type in the book related to your problems.

Read the reviews in Amazon, it has a lot of details about the book.

Use Singapore library search engine to find the good book in Amazon. Reserve the book.

Search the rapidshare or bit torrent for free copy of the book.

PASSION

To be very good in what you do, you have to work hard.

But asking you to work hard is hard to motivate you.

Having passion for the work is much better.

When you have passion for something, working hard is automatic, and the hardships doesnt seem to exist.

Dont falsely believe you need to find your true passion.

Actually anything can be your passion. You just need to know enough of the thing and you will come to love it.

You have to study the thing first and know a bit about it so it can become your passion.

Then you want to know more and more about the thing.

Passion is when you want to be a master of the thing, a guru of the thing.

Like dentistry, or Oracle, or Labview.

HANDLE BIG PROJECTS

Break it down to smaller parts.

Pretend that the job is easy.

You only have to do it 80% perfectly.]

Perform a task to 80 percent perfection.

If you aim for 100 percent, you will have trouble starting and fear of failure.

Push your limits. go outside of human norm.

This make your stronger because your brain is plastic.

Reframe fear as a challenge. The bigger the fear, the bigger the excitement.

Break a big task down to smaller parts.

Any complicated task is consist of many smaller very easy to understand components.

If not up then it is down, if not left then it is right.

You just have to spend time with it be with it.

After you break down the easy part then just focus on the small easy part until you solved it.

Dont look at other small easy parts.

Do one thing at a time.

Always go back to basic. Refer kihon in karate.

The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr. The now habit by Neil Fiore

STUDY COMPLICATED SUBJECTS

For subjects like Oracle, quantum theory, number mathematics, differential equations,

digital signal processing, fluid mechanics. Few people can understand.

Always find and read a beginner book first to build concept.

Never start with a reference book first. It will kill your passion.

A complicated subject is just a lot of small easy subjects combine together.

To study a thick book, get an overall idea first by reading quickly through the book,

read the table of contents, the introduction at each chapter. Don't go into the details.

Then Focus on the goal of the book, every human endeavor is trying to achieve something, if you know what is the target the details is easy.

Then you read the details to get an understanding.

Facts you dont understand write it down on a notebook for later solving.

Then you read deeper into the details.

Then You refer to other books for facts you don't understand.

You refer a lot of books and find a few best books that give intuitive understanding.

Read through the passage a few times even if you dont understand it.

Slow is smooth, smooth is fast. Like wine brewing.

Don't think that abstract science is dry and boring.

Math or Oracle is actually a higher evolution of nature into the non material world.

Looking at math pattern is the sameas looking at a forest.

Reading a luminous math book that switch on the light in a dark room is the greatest joy.

The patterns are beautiful. It is a different world only much more beautiful than the material world.

Spend your time in the non material beauty by reading math books.

Exploring math is like exploring into a beautiful forest.

Upload yourself into the non material world.

Practice, practice, practice -A great samurai warrior, this is call drilling and is most important aspect of gaining technology.

Being the best is not difficult.

As long as you know how to read and write you can be the expert in any field like Oracle or number theory;

learning these is easier than English.

You need to be constant be with it. Let it soak in to you like language osmosis.You have to love it.

You dont have to criticize yourself for learning slow or listen to other people.

Because all brain neurons have the same molecules and require the same time for all humans to rewire itself.

We are slower learners compared to other people, but once we learned something we are much better than other people.

Refer to our programming, karate, and math.

It seems like our brain performs comprehensive rewiring and it takes more time than other people.

Good wine need a long time to brew, you cannot rush it, and the wine we brew is the best.

So don’t worry, start slow, don’t care about other people, enjoy yourself in your object like Oracle,

know the beauty of it, this is what life all about.

BODY

Usually throughout my life, psychology tech fails, but Vit B complex always works to lift out of anxiety or depression.

The problem with Vit B is it will tense up the shoulder or neck and cause inflammation. And sole throat and flu.

Muscle knot massage for shoulder pain. Press on all over your neck, scalp and shoulder to find pain when press down.

The bone at scalp and shoulder blades are usually

the muscle knot areas. When find the painful spot, press down hard for half a minute, the muscle knot can only relax in great pressure.

The other one is heatiness cause by Vit B, drink herbal tea to counterbalance this effect.

Eat Vit B complex every 3 days to avoid inflammation or overheating.

Garlic cures cancer, penis erection even for dead rabbit, chronic fatigue

Vit B gives energy.

Muscle knots cure by finding painful spot and pressing hard on the spot for 1 minute to relax muscle .

Tumo meditation: if wars , this meditation allows you not to eat for months. Read Nepal Buddha boy in internet.

If you have cancer, remember Chi Kung.

SAYINGS

If you dont work what would you do?

The good point of technology is once you know it you will never lose it.

Face fear, conquer fear, be feared.

BEST BOOKS

Most of the books are in Singapore library.

Or you can read some hints in Amazon reviews and google books.

Or we have the pdf copy in our protable drive and freedrive.com.

{BOOKS YOU MUST READ}

The 50th Law by Robert Greene

How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.

The dip by Seth Godin

Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin

The Survivor personality by Al Siebert

Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu.

The above we have articles in freedrive.com, portable harddrive and print outs.

{War}

How to manipulate the manipulator

The 33 strategies of war by Robert Greene

Beyond Revenge

The Art of Strategy

{Shame and Covert war}

Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu

The pimp game by Mickey Royal

Emotional vampires by Albert Bernstein

How to save your marriage without talking about it by Steven Stosny

I dont want to talk about it by Terence Real

How full is your bucket by Tom Rath

Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men by Lundy Bancroft

{Be the best in the Market}

The dip by Seth Godin

Jack Trout on strategy by Jack Trout

Deliberate practice, Talent is overated by Geoff Colvin

The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr.

The now habit by Neil Fiore

Play by Stuart Brown

Free play by Setphen Nachmanovitch

{No new age bullshit}

Stripping the gurus by Geoffrey D. Falk

Top Secret: The Truth Behind Today's Pop Mysticisms by Robert M. Price

{Tech books}

The poker mindset by Matthew Hilger

Heads-Up No-Limit Hold 'em by Collin Moshman

Every hand reviewed by Gus Hansen.

Poker vide in youtube like High Stakes Poker

Differential Equations - by Paul Blanchard available in Singapore library.

Div, Grad, Curl, and All That: An Informal Text on Vector Calculus, by H. M Schey

Who Is Fourier?: A Mathematical Adventure by Lex Tokyo, Yo Sakakibara, and Alan Gleason

Understanding digital signal processing by Richard Lyons

Deep down things: The breath taking beauty of particle physics by Bruce Schumm

Fearless Symmetry

http://www.jbmelectronics.com/product/tcp.htm on networking also available in our portable drive

Computer networking first step by Wendell Odom

Networking, a beginner guide by Bruce Hallberg

Linux System Administration by Vicki Stanfield singapore libraries

UNIX Systems Programming by Kay A. Robbins

C Programming Language by Brian W. Kernighan, Dennis M. Ritchie

C++ without fear by Brian Overland Get it on freedrive.com user login as your mom.

Modern Operating Systems by Andrew Tanenbaum

Counter hack by Edward Skoudis

Head first SQL by Head First SQL by Lynn Beighley

Easy Oracle PL/SQL programming by John Garmany

Oracle 11g for dummies

Sams Teach yourself PLSQL in 21 days

Oracle SQL Tuning by Dan Tow

The art and science of Oracle Performance tuning

Oracle Performance Tuning for 10gR2 by Gavin JT Powell

Oracle SQL high performance tuning by Guy Harrison

The Black Book 1 March 2010

Books you must read:

The 50th Law by Robert Greene

How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.

The dip by Seth Godin

The Survivor personality by Al Siebert

Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu.

Three practices you do must do:

Karate: Put iron rod in your back bone. It is your religion.

Poker: Secret of human interactions. Learn being bad is necessary for survival.

Deliberate practice: Keep on practicing until you become the best.

Be the best in what you do:

People want the best. You don’t have to be good in a lot of thing. But you have to be the best in one or two things. Then only people will give money for your service.

You need to put in hard work and withstand boredom of learning and practicing to become the best. But the suffering required is much less than the suffering of being average and don’t have money. Just watch the old janitors to see how much suffering they have.

This world is all about war:

Everything people do in this world is about survival and getting the upper hand, war. The sooner you can accept this, the better.

Study every game theory book you can to know why war is everywhere. Study poker. Study every strategy book you can to get the upper hand.

You need have both the opposite polarities:

In order to be powerful and can thrive in any circumstances. For example; Self acceptance-self criticism, good guy-bad guy, fear-fearless, revenge-forgiveness, ego-no ego, striving-relaxation etc. Read the book “The survivor personality”.

Don’t reject any polarity, both opposite is needed. It is just like you bicep and tricep, night and day, softness and hardness.

Emotion counterbalancing:

When you have shame, you must put in more unconditional self love for yourself. When you have fear, you must put in more courage into yourself. Read the 50th Law.

Half good guy, half bad guy:

You need to be half bad because only evil can fight evil. You would never want to be bullied in life. Bullies only bully the people who want fight back. You have to fight back and is ready for any trouble. Look at movies or other people to imitate being a bad guy.

Imitation of hero story:

How to have Thick Face Black heart, you cannot use any visualization technique. Remember instead the hero story you have read and activate your imitation reflex. The best thick face story is the Chinese King Liu Pei in Thick Face Black Heart book, or Thick Black Theory book.

Shame and self compassion:

Men’s biggest weakness is shame. And bullies use subtle psychological manipulation to invoke shame in you. You counter shame by giving unconditional compassion for your mistakes and short coming. This is in accordance to ying and yang theory, where the weak ying actually nourishes the strong yang, yang cannot operate alone.

Bluff:

If you play poker you will discover all bullying is a form of bluffing. You counterbluff the enemy back. You can also use bluff to boost your self confidence.

Teasing, insults and sarcasm as attack:

Most of the time you cannot attack the enemy all out. So you use indirect means to attack the enemy and show that you have no fear. This is like the animal displays as explained in game theory. You can also learn from the black pimps crowning and dissing the enemy.

Balance your personalities disorder:

Every person has some degree of personality disorder. Each personality disorder is polarity. You need to choose the right polarity for situations. For instance if you have too much stress, you are in too much obsessive compulsive disorder, you need to balance by using anti social personality disorder. If you lack self confidence having codependent personality disorder, you need to put in more narsicissitic personality disorder. Read the book Emotional Vampires by.

No nirvana happy forever spiritual bullshit:

Don’t think that if you meditate enough, you reach nirvana and don’t need for money, status or anything. This world you need all of this, just read the stories of famous gurus conning their disciples. This world is about half struggle, half relax. Don’t struggle all the time, don’t relax all the time.

Increase your advantage, know your disadvantage:

This is the only rule of the game.

Be the best by studying a complicated subject:

You must study a complicated subject that few people can stand the boredom to master it. This is the gateway that keep other people out. Like dentistry or Oracle or Digital signal processing or Labview.

How to study a complicated book:

Scan the book first. Know what is the goal of each chapter. Get understanding. Then dig into the details. Write what you don’t understand on a notebook. If you get stuck in a book, find another good book. Read good beginner books first that gives a intuitive understanding. Find the good books in Amazon reviews. It is very important you find a few good beginner book to read.

Research:

For any problem you have. Use search engine like Google, Yahoo!. Go to internet forums to ask any questions you have. Use amazon search engine and review to find a good book. Use Singapore library search engine.

Add books for old knowledge crystals:

Emotional vampires by Albert Bernstein

Beyond Revenge

The Art of Strategy

The pimp game by Mickey Royal

KNOWLEDGE CRYSTALS 7 ---Feb 06, 2010--- Thick Face Black Heart

-For 20 years I have been testing methods, this is the ones that works.

-If too many techniques you would not use them. I will pass you the ones that work, like gyaku in karate.

-The two main secret I will teach you is : War and Passion.

TWO BOOKS YOU MUST READ

-How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Al Mualla

-The Dip by Seth Godin

DAILY PRACTICE: KARATE, POKER, WORK HARD

-Incorporates all the knowledge crystals below.

-Daily practice. If you forget everything, you must do this 3 things.

-Karate, like putting an iron rod into your spine. Keeps your will fierce and your character unafraid of pain. Karate is your religion.

-Poker, shows the core of every human interaction and game theory. Make you know bluffing is good.

-Work hard, let you become the best, you suffer now to suffer less in the future.

{WAR}

EVERYWHERE IS WAR

-Every human interaction, even in love, is a war.

-The world is also built by game theory, that is why war is in every interactions.

-Read everything on game theory.

-Bullying is everywhere, even in church. If you desire peace, prepare for war.

MANIPULATORS AND SHAME

-People seldom bully physically. They bully psychologically.

-They try to shame you in subtle ways. To make you get depression.

-Pride is like oxigen, you need it to live. Enemies attacks this.

-You must have no shame. You must face as thick as the wall of china.

-You must not let the enemy affect your emotions, this is the aim of the manipulators.

-On the other hand you must affect your enemy emotion actively. Attack is the best defense.

{YOUR SHIELD}

CHANGE YOUR VALUE, NOT EMOTION

-Values is something you want to keep like confidence. Change your value, change your thinking.

-Emotion is a symptom of value. Dont try to change your emotion by mindfulness, breathing, therapy, etc.

-Because value is the engine that moves emotion.

-Read "Why does he do that" by Lundy Bancroft, for understanding of value before emotion.

-Read all the heros in Thick Face Black Heart.

THICK FACE BLACK HEART

-Thick face means you don't care about shame and moral. It is your value.

-Your most important value is shameless.

-Whenever you think say this to your self "thick face black heart".

-Imagine you are one of the thick face hero not affected by difficult enviroment.

-Shame and fear is men's most troubling emotion. It is frequently used in war.

YOGA AND RELAXATION

-There is a problem with karate. Likely you cant practice everyday.

-Then you will be tense during war. Relaxation is crucial for war so that you can reactly efficiently.

-If you are tense, it is easy for you to have shame and fear.

-You use stretching for relaxation. Yoga can be practice everyday.

-If you dont have time for yoga. Just bend forward and stretch the legs will do.

TREAT YOUR SHORTCOMINGS WITH COMPASSION AND FORGIVENESS AND SOFTNESS

-So you are not paralyzed by shame or fear.

-In this world there is ying and yang. War is yang. Love and forgiveness is ying.

-Yang and ying must compliment and help each other. Ying will nourish yang and help yang become strong.

{YOUR SPEAR}

BLUFF

-Bluff means pretending you are more powerful than you really are.

-All manipulators action is actually bluffing.

-When they bluff you, you counter bluff the manipulators back.

-You can even bluff knowing that the enemy knows you are bluffing. This is call thick face bluff.

-Poker teaches bluffing well.

KNOW THE ENEMY IS BLUFFING

-Then the fake power of the enemy is exposed.

USE HUMOR TO ATTACK, TEASE, INSULT AND SARCASM

-You usually cannot attack the manipulators directly.

-As describe in game theory, animals just pretend to attack, as the cost of real attack is high.

-Show you use tesing, sarcasm, and insult to the manipulator to show that you are not afraid.

CHICKEN GAME OF GAME THEORY

-You must not show any fear or weakness to the enemy. You must show you are willing to fight to the death.

-This is the chicken game of game theory.

-You must pretend that you are not afraid of anything. You must bluff.

-People fear and respect the brave.

-You must a bit crazy, a bit irrational. Shameless.

HALF BAD GUY

-Use evil to fight evil. Only evil can fight evil.

-You mustn't reject the bad guy personality so much you cannot use his tactics against him.

-You need to have badness so that bullies will not invade you.

-You must visualize yourself as a bad guy. Play poker often.

-Watch "Chronicals of Riddick" or "3:10 to Yuma" movies, or any other movies with half bad guy.

-You can also visualize yourself as a being from the underworld like satan or vampire.

LET YOURSELF BE BULLIED FOR LONG TERM GAIN

-Sometimes you have to consciously do this.

NO SPIRITUAL OR SELF HEALING BULLSHIT

-Buddhism, Hinduism, New Age has this bullshit about no ego enlightenment.

-I spent 20 years searching for it and wasted my time.

-The world is built up by game theory and the dip, no ego cannot survive at all in this world.

-Read the hypocritical life of spiritual gurus in Stripping the Gurus book.

-No self healing bullshit also.

-If world war II going on, soldiers are raping women, and you do not defend yourself by praying to god or deep breathing.

{PASSION}

BE THE BEST IN THE MARKET

-To be happy you must have money. Just observe misery of janitors with no money.

-You must be the best in the market to have money.

-You must be good in an skill that few people can do. Look for a gate that few people can pass through, known as the dip, and work on crossing the gate.

-To be the best you must focus your time on improving your performance on one skill.

-Have focus, economize to mass your resources.

-You have to suffer to be the best in the market. But this suffering is much less than the overall suffering of being not the best.

-Money=suffer, less money=more suffer.

--The dip by Seth Godin, Talent is overated by Geoff Colvin.

PASSION

-To be very good in what you do, you have to work hard. But asking you to work hard is hard to motivate you. Having passion for the work is much better.

-When you have passion for something, working hard is automatic, and the hardships doesnt seem to exist.

-Dont falsely believe you need to find your true passion. Actually anything can be your passion. You just need to know enough of the thing and you will come to love it. You

have to study the thing first and know a bit about it so it can become your passion. Then you want to know more and more about the thing.

-Passion is when you want to be a master of the thing, a guru of the thing. Like dentistry, or Oracle, or Labview.

HANDLE BIG PROJECTS

-Break it down to smaller parts.

-Pretend that the job is easy.

-You only have to do it 80% perfectly.Perform a task to 80 percent perfection. If you aim for 100 percent, you will have trouble starting and fear of failure.

-Push your limits. go outside of human norm. This make your stronger because your brain is plastic.

-Reframe fear as a challenge. The bigger the fear, the bigger the excitement.

-Break a big task down to smaller parts. Any complicated task is consist of many smaller very easy to understand components. If not up then it is down, if not left then it is

right. You just have to spend time with it be with it. After you break down the easy part then just focus on the small easy part until you solved it. Dont look at other small

easy parts.

-Do one thing at a time.

-Always go back to basic. Refer kihon in karate.

-The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr. The now habit by Neil Fiore

STUDY COMPLICATED SUBJECTS

-For subjects like Oracle, quantum theory, number mathematics, differential equations, digital signal processing, fluid mechanics. Few people can understand.

-Always find and read a beginner book first to build concept. Never start with a reference book first. It will kill your passion.

-A complicated subject is just a lot of small easy subjects combine together.

-To study a thick book, get an overall idea first by reading quickly through the book, read the table of contents, the introduction at each chapter. Don't go into the details.

Then Focus on the goal of the book, every human endeavor is trying to achieve something, if you know what is the target the details is easy.

Then you read the details to get an understanding. Facts you dont understand write it down on a notebook for later solving.

Then you read deeper into the details.

Then You refer to other books for facts you don't understand.

-You refer a lot of books and find a few best books that give intuitive understanding.

-Read through the passage a few times even if you dont understand it.

-Slow is smooth, smooth is fast. Like wine brewing.

-Don't think that abstract science is dry and boring. Math or Oracle is actually a higher evolution of nature into the non material world. Looking at math pattern is the same

as looking at a forest. Reading a luminous math book that switch on the light in a dark room is the greatest joy. The patterns are beautiful. It is a different world only much

more beautiful than the material world. Spend your time in the non material beauty by reading math books. Exploring math is like exploring into a beautiful forest. Upload

yourself into the non material world.

-Practice, practice, practice -A great samurai warrior, this is call drilling and is most important aspect of gaining technology.

-Being the best is not difficult. As long as you know how to read and write you can be the expert in any field like Oracle or number theory; learning these is easier than

English. You need to be constant be with it. Let it soak in to you like language osmosis.You have to love it.

-You dont have to criticize yourself for learning slow or listen to other people because all brain neurons have the same molecules and require the same time for all humans to rewire itself.

-We are slower learners compared to other people, but once we learned something we are much better than other people. Refer to our programming, karate, and math. It

seems like our brain performs comprehensive rewiring and it takes more time than other people. Good wine need a long time to brew, you cannot rush it, and the wine we

brew is the best. So don’t worry, start slow, don’t care about other people, enjoy yourself in your object like Oracle, know the beauty of it, this is what life all about.

-The Practicing Mind by Thomas Sterner.

RESEARCH

-Have an edge over other people.

-Use internet search engine like Google or Yahoo.

-Ask questions about life in internet forums like Oracle forum or Low Yatt forum.

-Use Amazon.com search engine and type in the book related to your problems.

-Read the reviews in Amazon, it has a lot of details about the book.

-Use Singapore library search engine to find the good book in Amazon. Reserve the book.

-Search the rapidshare or bit torrent for free copy of the book.

{MISC}

SACRIFISE A LITTLE TO GAIN MORE

-For example, you study dentistry and you dont go out to play. You gain more when you are a dentist.

-This concept is more accurate than accepting suffering because accepting suffering seems pain for nothing.

-This is one of the crucial point of my philosophy.

MINDFULNESS

-If all else fails, mindfulness usually works as temporary relief. Refer buddhism for the technique.

-The pain is still there but you wont be affected by it.

VIT B & MUSCLE KNOT MASSAGE

-Usually throughout my life, psychology tech fails, but Vit B complex always works to lift out of anxiety or depression.

-The problem with Vit B is it will tense up the shoulder or neck and cause inflammation. And sole throat and flu.

-Muscle knot massage for shoulder pain. Press on all over your neck, scalp and shoulder to find pain when press down. The bone at scalp and shoulder blades are usually

the muscle knot areas. When find the painful spot, press down hard for half a minute, the muscle knot can only relax in great pressure.

-The other one is heatiness cause by Vit B, drink herbal tea to counterbalance this effect.

-Eat Vit B complex every 3 days to avoid inflammation or overheating.

SAYINGS

-If you dont work what would you do?

-The good point of technology is once you know it you will never lose it.

BODY

-Garlic cures cancer, penis erection even for dead rabbit, chronic fatigue

-Vit B gives energy.

-Muscle knots cure by finding painful spot and pressing hard on the spot for 1 minute to relax muscle .

-Tumo meditation: if wars , this meditation allows you not to eat for months. Read Nepal Buddha boy in internet.

-If you have cancer, remember Chi Kung.

BEST BOOKS

-Most of the books are in Singapore library. Or you can read some hints in Amazon reviews and google books. Or we have the pdf copy in our protable drive and

freedrive.com.

{War}

-How to manipulate the manipulator (the is the one book you must have)

-The 33 strategies of war by Robert Greene

{Shame and Covert war}

-Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu

-How to save your marriage without talking about it by Steven Stosny

-I dont want to talk about it by Terence Real

-How full is your bucket by Tom Rath

-Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men by Lundy Bancroft

-Emotional Blackmail by Forward, Susan

{Be the best in the Market}

-The dip by Seth Godin (the other book you must buy)

-Jack Trout on strategy by Jack Trout

-Talent is overated by Geoff Colvin

-The Practicing Mind by Thomas Sterner.

-The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr.

-The now habit by Neil Fiore

-Play by Stuart Brown

-Free play by Setphen Nachmanovitch

{No new age bullshit}

-Stripping the gurus by Geoffrey D. Falk

-Top Secret: The Truth Behind Today's Pop Mysticisms by Robert M. Price

-The poker mindset by Matthew Hilger

-Heads-Up No-Limit Hold 'em by Collin Moshman

-Every hand reviewed by Gus Hansen.

-Poker vide in youtube like High Stakes Poker

-Differential Equations - by Paul Blanchard available in Singapore library.

-Div, Grad, Curl, and All That: An Informal Text on Vector Calculus, by H. M Schey

-Who Is Fourier?: A Mathematical Adventure by Lex Tokyo, Yo Sakakibara, and Alan Gleason

-Understanding digital signal processing by Richard Lyons

-The road to reality by Roger Penthrose

-http://www.jbmelectronics.com/product/tcp.htm on networking also available in our portable drive

-Computer networking first step by Wendell Odom

-Networking, a beginner guide by Bruce Hallberg

-Linux System Administration by Vicki Stanfield singapore libraries

-UNIX Systems Programming by Kay A. Robbins

-C Programming Language by Brian W. Kernighan, Dennis M. Ritchie

-C++ without fear by Brian Overland Get it on freedrive.com user login as your mom.

-Modern Operating Systems by Andrew Tanenbaum

-Counter hack by Edward Skoudis

-Head first SQL by Head First SQL by Lynn Beighley

-Easy Oracle PL/SQL programming by John Garmany

-Oracle 11g for dummies

-Sams Teach yourself PLSQL in 21 days

-Oracle SQL Tuning by Dan Tow

-The art and science of Oracle Performance tuning

-Oracle Performance Tuning for 10gR2 by Gavin JT Powell

-Oracle SQL high performance tuning by Guy Harrison