Dont care about happiness

Dont care about happiness, emotions and self image, chasing this wont work and will waste time and energy. Your self is a few billion neurons like marbles interacting with each other, no way to control them. You can only control your action.

So if your life is not about happiness, then what is it? It is about being the best at what you do, about performance. If you are the best, if you are competent, money and happiness will come as a byproduct. You cant chase happiness directly, it must come indirectly from competence. Happiness is actually meaning, and meaning is the evolution of nature extending into the non physical realm. Just focus on getting competent, money and meaning will follow, dont care what other people do trying to push you under.

Without caring about happiness or self image, you will become very fast, light and mobile. You can react to the moment, and you will have energy and no pain of banging against a wall repeatedly.

Process orientation, not goal orientation. Focus on doing the best action, dont focus on the result. Process orientation book.

Bubul system 6 words

勤, 半壞, 自爱, 平衡, 吃苦, 空手道


If dont do the above, below will happen.
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/rtrs/20101216/tbs-business-us-usa-economy-special-7318940.html

Sean you only need to do 2 things

Get Karate 4 dan.

Game programming at age 8 until get a job at Google.

Think empowering thoughts as fuel power

Think empowering thoughts so your thoughts are power fuel. Your negative thoughts are the compost, dont reject negative thoughts, instead add empowering thoughts on top of them so they can burn as fuel. Humans must need fuel power thoughts to survive. Observe the depress person they die often.

One empowering thoughts is the concept of heroic journey often used by Seals and Gurillas warrior. Even though you are weaker, you can win. Even though you are weaker, you likely will fail, but you still fight heroiclly, and people will respect you. The fighter without the advantage is the true hero. Even though you lose this time you will be stronger for the next war.

It is never your fault. Your action is determinted by gene, social conditioning, and the conditions arising, you have close to zero control. It is not your fault.

All your actions have a good motivation hidden behind it. For example if you fear, it is because you want to avoid danger or you dont want to disrupt the situation. Sometimes the action is not appropriate to the situation but still your motivation behind it is always good. Then you do not judge yourself, however this does not mean you dont judge others. Use a double standard, be thick face black heart, half gangster.

To have war, paradoxically you have to love yourself completely without shame without caring anything about your mistakes and shortness. The polarity opposite of love and conflict must be simultaneously together.

Use this empowering thougths to give fuel for good feelings like confidence and thrill.

Positive and being happy concept is too abstract, what does being happy mean? Dont use positive thinking and happiness concept.

Knowledge Crystals 24 12 10 This world is made of war

(Cream)

勤, 半壞, 自爱, 平衡, 吃苦, 空手道
Only 2 goals: Get Karate 4 dan, & game programming at age 8 until get a job at Google.
Fight bullies
Fight evil with evil
Unbalance your enemy with anger, frustration and fear. Keep your own balance.
Bluff enemy and yourself to gain advantage.
Play to invigorate your soul.
Be the best in the market
Karate
Small loses for larger gain
Half fight friends
Vit B, Reverse Breathing

The 50th Law by Robert Greene
The Concise 33 Strategies of War by Robert Greene
Mind Warrior by Haha Lung
Thick Black Theory by Zhao An Xin

The dip by Seth Godin
The now habit by Neil Fiore
Talent is Over Rated by Geoff Govin


(detail explanation)

THIS WORLD IS MADE OF WAR

This world is made of war. War permeates everywhere, even into the monasteries. War is in your family, this is in the form of put downs and emotional manipulation. The strong eat the weak, this is the iron rule of the universe. Religion, self childhood healing, meditation, love is totally off the mark.

Game theory and chaos theory fractals explain why the world is made of war. Religion, new age spiritual theory cannot explain the world accurately. Read every strategy, warrior and game theory book you can find.

You have to be good at being farmer and warrior. If only warrior, you will end up poor and hungry or in jail. If only farmer, people will bully you until you suicide. You have to be balanced.

You have to: fight people, fight objects. Two weapons: Asshole and Hard Work. Germans and Japanese exemplifies this.



FIGHT PEOPLE : ASSHOLE

Willing to fight bullies. All of your emotional problems come from bullies like your parents or colleagues. The way to solve bullies problems is this: Bullies only pick on peace people who dont want trouble, who wont fight back. Bullies only pick on easy target. You have to fight back the bullies, give them a hard time, then they wont pick on you. You have to risk temporary losses like being knock out a few teeth in order to have long term peace.

You have to be unpredictable and threatening. Deter bad people from bothering you. You have to give a hard time to bullies. Bullies look for easy target and wont fight people who fight them. Power perceived is the same with power achieved.

You have to play when you are fighting in order to invigorate your soul because fighting enemies is stressful.

Like Crows Zero movie, you have to pretend the object is easy, this include losing your face. This prevent that you turn the gain too high on a control system that doesnt need to turn so high.Smooth, smooth, smooth, a FI driver said.

Take some small pain to avoid larger pain. Pain includes work, fight, problems. This is the secret of success for most people. If you avoid small pain, you will have much more problems. Pain is like money. You try to use small money to buy happiness and protection. If you avoid pain of hard work and problem solving, from my long experience, bigger pain will come. Pain is also like chilly, give life an hot enjoyment. It is also gives power. The more pain you took, the more powerful you are. Observe seals training, or in your student or working life. This is an iron law of the universe.

A lot of times you dont have to crush your enemies because you need a relationship with them.Then you need to half defeat them and half befriend them. You do this by insulting and clowning them occasionally using the pimps method.When clowning, always put the focus on the enemy, never let them put the focus on you.

Eat vitamin B. Take vitamin for 3 days then stop for 4 days in a weekl, vit b is heaty. Dont take vit b if you have exam the next day because you might not sleep well.Take vitamin on the day of your exam.Because vit b is heaty, you might have muscle knots. Press all over your body to find a painful area. Press hard into the painful area for 1 minute until the muscle relaxes. A lot of time it is near the interface between bone and muscle, sometimes even on scalp. Learn Tumo meditation, you can go with weeks without eating.

Thick face black heart by remembering Liu Pei and Chao Chao.

Pretend the object is easy.

Willing to take small loses for larger gain

Reverse Breathing. Tuck in stomach when breath in. Tuck out stomach when breath out. Do this when you dont have balance.

Karate will be your guardian parent. If you have step parents and they psychologically abuse you by putting you down, karate can protect you.

Imbalance enemy with anger, frustration, fear. Maintain your own balance.

Always attack the enemy, never be defensive and focus on yourself. Always use "you" in verbal war. Self help therapy and meditation make it worst because it focus the blame on yourself.

Be half asshole. Only evil can fight evil. Watch Chronicals of Riddick movie, Satanism books, Crows Zero II movie.

You have to be half evil to fight bullies. Get satan power. You have to love and forgive yourself to fight. Get Jesus power. Satan and Jesus opposite polarity intertwined, like the helix of DNA.

Play Poker. Manipulators use bluffs because their put downs is not true. The only way to fight bluff is counter bluff. No limit Texas Holdem Poker teach you how to bluff.

Half fight friends. Fight bullies and friends in degree. But you can't always start all out war with bullies in a group .Sometimes you still need to be in cooperation with a group. So slowly invade the bully degree by degree using teasing, jokes and gentle insult. Sometimes you have to use the hard way.But know that a lot of times respect can only be gained by inviduals using fight.The process is this, fight first and only corperate and become friends.First hot war, then cold war, then friends. This is the usual process.

You watch the animals in documentaries. They bump each other to establish hierarchy, to establish respect. Only with respect you will not be invaded. Humans are the same, only more subtle, bumping each other with intelligence or courage. You need both. Practice karate to get courage. Hack Oracle or Linux to get intelligence.

Pimp method of clowning and dissing your enemies.

Never assume other people same intelligence as you. They are usually dumber.

Stress overload yourself to make yourself stronger. Watch Navy Seals hell week, Sumo training, Swihili tribe adult initiation, Spartan children training.

If you dont have time for karate, then do heavy weight lifting. The weight must be heavy enough so that you will achieve total muscle fatigue in 5 repetition. Weight lifting is not for you to build muscle, but so that you will be fearless.

Balance the polarities: half good, half bad. Half revenge, half forgive. Half hard working, half lazy. Half goal oriented, half dont care.

Whenever someone shame, whether the shame is true or false, it is always an invasion, because reality is neutral, any form of judgement is a bluff. You fight bluff by bluffing back. You act as though what you say is right even though you know is wrong. This becomes your weapon you use consciously. You bluff as though you are the smartest and you intimate people. Remember power is from perception of people, dont have to be reality. Bluffing is a very important weapon against bad people, it makes you not trapped in the good guy victim position. Bluffing is power. Dont use it on good people though, use it on bad people. Play no limit texas holdem it helps pick up the skill of bluffing. If you look deeper, you can see that you are using semi bluff all the time.

You can even bluff yourself about reality. Think yourself as the best, as a hero out to conquer to world. Bluff yourself that your enemy is much weaker than you to attain confidence and your enemy will feel it and fear you. Actually all our perception of reality is bluff, we can never perceive reality with full accuracy, our perception is always a semi bluff.


FIGHT OBJECTS : HARD WORK

Be the best in the market. You have to be the best so that money will flow to you. And people wont bully you. This is the only way to be happy, there is no other way, even the enlightened monks hide money. You must have a complicated skill where few people can tolerate the boredom and hardwork to get the skill, few people can do it, like programming, engineering, medicine, law, accounting.

Willing to take small loses for larger gain. You have to give up laziness, playing with friends, well being in order to get complicated skills. This is temporary pain. You exchange temporary small pain with future big pain. Being a janitor is painful for eternity.

The best path is start game programming when you are 9 years old.
Then get a couple of proffesional certifications when you are 12 years old like Oracle OCA, Cisco CCNA.

Practice practice practice. Stress overload yourself to make yourself stronger. Your brain is plastic. Research shows every expert need 10,000 hours of practice. Just like writing english, at first it is very difficult, but after practice practice, you writing english like breathing.

Let the skill grow organically and slowly. It is like wine making. Don't care if you are slower than other people, that means your root is bigger takes more time to form, and your skill later will be stronger than other people.

Have passion for the skill. You have to be with the skill constantly. Let it soak into your soul.

Start game programming with C and directX at 9 years old.
Get proffesional certifications like Oracle OCP, Comptia Network+
Plan your fun time first in order to be motivated to work hard.

Break to smaller parts n do it one by one, get overview first, note down your question, find good beginner books, memorize by visualizing without reading.
Memorization is not useless, it builds neuron paths and then IQ.

Steps of studying a complicated book: a. Scan the book first. b. Know what is the goal of each chapter. c. Get understanding. Then dig into the details. d. Write what you don’t understand on a notebook. e. If you get stuck in a book, find another good book. f. Read good beginner books first that gives a intuitive understanding. g. Find the good books in Amazon reviews. It is very important you find a few good beginner book to read. h. This is the fastest way to memorize what you read. Everytime you read some small fact, look away and try to visualize back what you read. If you can visualize that means your brain already can remember it.

When reading new book, always read lightly and fast, dont read every detail, get a feel about the book first. Then do some sample questions like SelfTestSoftware to know where to read in detail. Then you do first deeper reading. Then the second even deeper reading.

Note down questions on a txt file to refer back later.

Always read good beginners book first that builds intuitive understanding. Dont read reference books first, it will kill your passion. Use google search type "best books calculus (or other subjects). Or go into amazon.com, search for 4 stars books and read the comments in amazon about the book.

Know complicated subjects are evolution of nature into the metaphysical realm. Looking at Oracle or Labview is same as looking at a forest. Reading a luminous math book that switch on the light in a dark room is the greatest joy. The patterns are beautiful. They are not dry.

Do sample exam questions because it gives you a focus on where to study.

Know how to research to solve problems. Use internet search engine like Google or Yahoo. Ask questions about life in internet forums like Oracle forum or Low Yatt forum.Use Amazon.com search engine and type in the book related to your problems.Read the reviews in Amazon, it has a lot of details about the book.Use Singapore library search engine to find the good book in Amazon. Reserve the book.Search the rapidshare or bit torrent for free copy of the book.

Hacking: Immerse your life in abstract subject.1. Then there is no boredom. Life is a adventure everyday. You go into a blissful state. You are playing with toys forever. Work is play. You dont have to fix to one subject you can be an expert in many subjects. Refer to Iron Man movie. 2. Oracle, network security, Labview, Linux, quantum theory, computational fluid mechanics, ocean wave mechanics, weather differential equations, number theory, Lisp, C++, control system, Go, chess, bridge, backgammon, western philosophy eg Roger Scruton, poetry, karate.

Work hard, play hard

A lifelong hobby like chess supports your work and prevents depression. Chess is the best game because it has the right balance of shortness and strategy. Go is too long winded. Poker, backgammon, RTS are too simple. Bridge is a bit simple. Programming no matter what is work. Practice tactics and watch opening videos of Chessbase. I recommend Colle ZukerTort and French Defense because these openings base on concepts not tactics.

Dont believe in the spiritual that doesnt work. It is like putting your head in a hole in the middle of a battlefield. I wasted 20 years on this. This includes: New age, pop psychology, religion, inner child healing, mindfulness, rebirthing, deep breathing, yoga, buddhism, christianity, god, meditation, nirvana, no ego, enlightenment, avaita, zen, visualization, relaxation, aikido, NLP, positive thinking, positive psychology, self esteem, ayn rand, forgiveness, let it go, feel your feelings, being open, being in the now, primal therapy, trauma therapy, childhood therapy, afterworld, acupuncture, EFT, rapid eye therapy, Kinesiology, self healing. 3. Don’t think that if you meditate enough, you reach nirvana and don’t need for money, status or anything. Read the hypocritical life of spiritual gurus in Stripping the Gurus book.



SELF LOVE THOUGHT AS FUEL POWER

Think empowering thoughts so your thoughts are power fuel. Your negative thoughts are the compost, dont reject negative thoughts, instead add empowering thoughts on top of them so they can burn as fuel. Humans must need fuel power thoughts to survive. Observe the depress person they die often.

One empowering thoughts is the concept of heroic journey often used by Seals and Gurillas warrior. Even though you are weaker, you can win. Even though you are weaker, you likely will fail, but you still fight heroiclly, and people will respect you. The fighter without the advantage is the true hero. Even though you lose this time you will be stronger for the next war.

It is never your fault. Your action is determinted by gene, social conditioning, and the conditions arising, you have close to zero control. It is not your fault.

All your actions have a good motivation hidden behind it. For example if you fear, it is because you want to avoid danger or you dont want to disrupt the situation. Sometimes the action is not appropriate to the situation but still your motivation behind it is always good. Then you do not judge yourself, however this does not mean you dont judge others. Use a double standard, be thick face black heart, half gangster.

To have war, paradoxically you have to love yourself completely without shame without caring anything about your mistakes and shortness. The polarity opposite of love and conflict must be simultaneously together.

Use this empowering thougths to give fuel for good feelings like confidence and thrill.

Positive and being happy concept is too abstract, what does being happy mean? Dont use positive thinking and happiness concept.



MISC

1. Vit B can usually instantly cure your fatigue, depression, anxiety. But if you eat too much, you cant sleep and you have muscle ache. So eat for 3 days, stop for 4 days or so. Before exam don’t eat for 2 days because you may have problem sleeping. At the morning of the exam, eat it for energy and aggressive brain. 2. Muscle ache in the necks and shoulders are caused by muscle knots. Press all over your neck, scalp and shoulder to find pain when press down or hard spots. After you find the painful spot, press down hard on the spot for at least half minute. The muscle in spasm can only relax with great pressure for more than half minute. The bone at scalp and shoulder blades are usually the muscle knot areas. 3. Garlic can cure cancer and bird flu and fatigue, eat a lot of it. 4. There are chi kung and meditation that can make you no need for food and drinks for months. Check out the internet for yogis who don’t have to eat. This is important during environmental disasters and war in your time. 5. If you have cancer, eat garlic and do chi kung. 6. A lot of times your mental problem is due to lack of water. Drink a cup of water. 7. Good sayings: If you dont work what would you do? The good point of technology is once you know it you will never lose it. Face fear, conquer fear, be feared. If he do it, why cant you do it?

Press hard for 1 minute into the muscle knots near shoulder, neck and head.
Tumo meditation dont have to eat for months.
Garlic can cure cancer and everything.
Sleep well can cure depression. If you dont sleep well, it is easy for you to have fear.
Heavy weight lifting and shikodachi pain bearing generate strong body and then generate strong character. Enduring pain builds brain wiring. Dont flinch practice.
Vit B. To dispel fear and give energy
Dont be afraid of death. We already die everytime we go to sleep. Death is part of god.



BOOKS

(Great books)
Mind warrior by Haha Lung
Martial Mechanics by Philip Starr
Pitch Black, Crows Zero II, 300 movie
17 lies that are holding you back and the truth will set you free by Steve Chandler
How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.
The Survivor personality by Al Siebert.
The art of always being right by Schopenhauer, Arthur
Any game theory book. Any strategy book.
Commanders at war in youtube.
How to be a pimp article. In our portable drive.
Top dog bottom dog by Robert Karen
How full is your bucket by Tom Rath
Get anyone to do anything by David Lieberman
The art of strategy by Dixit
The art of the strategist by William Cohen
Jack Trout on strategy by Jack Trout
Outliers by Malcome Gladwell
Winning: The Psychology of competition by Walker Stuart
Play by Stuart Brown
Free play by Setphen Nachmanovitch
A General Theory of Love by Thomas Lewis
Lights out by TS Wiley
Stripping the gurus by Geoffrey D. Falk
Top Secret: The Truth Behind Today's Pop Mysticisms by Robert M. Price


(Top intuitive books that will set you for life)
Digital Signal Processing 101: Everything you need to know to get started by Michael Parker
Differential Equations - by Paul Blanchard available in Singapore library.
Div, Grad, Curl, and All That: An Informal Text on Vector Calculus, by H. M Schey
Who Is Fourier?: A Mathematical Adventure by Lex Tokyo, Yo Sakakibara, and Alan Gleason
What is Quantum Mechanics? A Physics Adventure - Second Edition by Transnational College of LEX
C Programming Language by Brian W. Kernighan, Dennis M. Ritchie
Head first SQL by Head First SQL by Lynn Beighley
Metamagical Themas by Douglas Hofstadter
Schrodinger Kittens by John Gribbin
Simple Chess by Michael Stean
Hello World! Computer programming for kids by Warren Sande
Discovering chess opening by John Emms
Poems of Dennis Levertov
Introducing Foucault, Derrida, Post-modernism. Albert Camus.


(good tech books)
The poker mindset by Matthew Hilger
Heads-Up No-Limit Hold 'em by Collin Moshman
Every Hand Reviewed by Gus Hansen.
Poker videos in youtube, like High Stakes Poker

Zuke Them by David Rudel
Chessbase software The French Defense by Ari Ziegler in our portable drive
Learn the opening the easy way: Colle Zukertort by Susan Polgar
500 points in 400 days article by Michael De La Maza


Easy Oracle PL/SQL programming by John Garmany
Oracle 11g for dummies
Sams Teach yourself PLSQL in 21 days
Oracle SQL Tuning by Dan Tow
The art and science of Oracle Performance tuning
Oracle Performance Tuning for 10gR2 by Gavin JT Powell
Oracle SQL high performance tuning by Guy Harrison
Always use Selftestsoftware Study Guides to pass certification exams.

CISSP All In One Exam Guide by Shon Harris
Computer networking first step by Wendell Odom
Networking, a beginner guide by Bruce Hallberg
Linux System Administration by Vicki Stanfield singapore libraries
UNIX Systems Programming by Kay A. Robbins
C++ without fear by Brian Overland. Get it on freedrive.com user login as your mom.
Modern Operating Systems by Andrew Tanenbaum
Counter hack by Edward Skoudis
http://www.jbmelectronics.com/product/tcp.htm .Also available in our portable drive


(To get Oracle, Network+ and Labview certifications)
Get a practice exam to get an overview, like Transcender or Selftestsoftware.
Find beginner intuitive books by googgling "Best Oracle books" or "Best beginner PLSQL book". Then read reviews in Amazon.
Try to get free books by googling "(book title) free book"
Reading a good beginner book is extremely important.


(Quotes)
"By giving into the bully, billy taught Ryan that his intimidating behavior was okay. Standing up to him early, even if it meant being beaten up, would have been better than speending a whole year in pain. Almost all bullies pick on people who wont fight back. They use intimidation and are rarely interested in real conflict."
– The Survivor Personality book

"When you submit to an aggressors or to an unjust and imposssible situation. You do not buy yourself any real peace. You encourage people to go further, to take more from you, to use you for their own purposes. They sense your lack of self respect and they feel justified in mistreating you. You must develop the opposite - afighting stance that comes from deep within and cannot be shaken. You force some respect. This comes from your attitude - fearless and alwyas prepared to fight. It radiates outward and can be read in your amnner without you having to speak a word. By a paradoxical alw of human nature, trying to please people less will make them ore likely in the long run to respect and treat you better. Theis inner strength, however, does not come naturally. What is required is some experience. This means that in your daily life you must assert yourself more than usual.
– The 50th Law book.

"Survivors puzzled me at first. They are serious and humoours, hard working and lazy, self confident and self critical. They are not one way or the other, they are both one way and the other. Sensitive-tough, strong-gentle, cowardly-courageous, mature-playful, humorous- serious, distant-friendly, self confident-self critical, trusting-cautious, dependent- independent, impulsive-well organized, happy-discontent, cooperative-rebellious, proud -humble, selfish-unselfish, lazy-hardwworking, involved-detached, logical-creative, calm-emotional,shy-bold, loving-angry,consistent-unpredictable,messy-net,optimistic- pessimistic"
- The Survivor Personality book

"karate spirit is of great importance. No matter who wins or loses, dies or stays alive, - most important is training, process, fight and the "Way" itself. When you are free from idea of winning and losing, you are immersed in the spirit of Budo and enjoy every moment of the Way, irrespective of winning or losing. Hear these words and you will become great karateka."
-Anon

"If competence is attained, Winning will follow.
There is no reason to disparage the desirability of winning. What is necessary, however, is to recognize that although winning is the object of the game, it is not the object of playing the game. page 39
The more the competitor enjoys and attributes significance to the play itself, the more likely he is to win. The essence of winning behavior is relaxed enjoyment, playing the game. page 40
A number of balances must be struck: between aggressiveness and passivity, between greed and complacency, between impulsivity and intellectualization. most races, and all series demand these balances, demand equanimity, but there are times and places for marked variation from the happy medium. page 119"
-Winning: The Psychology Of Competition book

"Seek freedom and become captive of your desires, seek discipline and find your liberty." - Karate Master Ahmad Mehanna.

"If you dont work, what will you do? If he can do it, why cant you do it?"
-Anon

"Practice, practice, practice" - A samurai

"Cry in the dojo, laugh in the battlefield" - Samurai

"10) Create a Threatening Presence: Deterrence Strategies.[1] Make people think they will lose, bluff if needed. People want an easy victory and will not attack if they think they will lose.
Reverse Intimidation. 1) Make bold maneuvers and bluff wisely, 2) be a threat, make sudden moves, imply aggression, 3) move irrationally, create unpredictability, act crazy, 4) Feed your opponent's paranoia by indicating capabilities that they are afraid of, 5) maintain a bad reputation, mean, nasty and non-negotiable."
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_33_Strategies_of_War
-33 Strategies of War book Wiki

"No matter what, fight"
-Bubul

Short form knowledge crystals 28 11 10

Fight bullies
Be half asshole
Be the best in the market
Play
Karate
Tolerate pain
Half fight friends
Vit B

Knowledge Crystals 28 11 2010 (in testing)

Fight bullies
Be half asshole
Be the best in the market
Play
Karate
Tolerate pain
Half fight friends
Vit B


50% of life problems come from bullies. Solve your bullies, solve all your psychological problems.
You have to be unpredictable and threatening. You have to give a hard time to bullies. Bullies look for easy target and wont fight people who fight them. Power perceived is the same with power achieved.

You have to be the best in the market in order to have happiness. This the primary rule of the universe.
How to be the best? You practice, practice, practice. Even if you are slower, practice will make you the best.
This solves the other 50% of your problems.

From Winning: The Psychology Of Competition book:
If competence is attained, Winning will follow.
There is no reason to disparage the desirability of winning. What is necessary, however, is to recognize that although winning is the object of the game, it is not the object of playing the game. page 39
The more the competitor enjoys and attributes significance to the play itself, the more likely he is to win. The essence of winning behavior is relaxed enjoyment, playing the game. page 40

To fight bullies, you need to be half evil, else you cannot fight them. Bluff poker wil let you practice.
Karate is the anchor that builds the above. If I am not around, karate will be your step father. If you forget everything, remember only karate.

Take some small pain to avoid larger pain. Pain includes work, fight, problems.
This is the secret of success for most people. If you avoid small pain, you will have much more problems. Pain is like money. You try to use small money to buy happiness and protection.
If you avoid pain of hard work and problem solving, from my long experience, bigger pain will come. Pain is also like chilly, give life an hot enjoyment. It is also gives power. The more pain you took, the more powerful you are. Observe seals training, or in your student or working life.
This is an iron law of the universe.

A lot of times you dont have to crush your enemies because you need a relationship with them.
Then you need to half defeat them and half befriend them. You do this by insulting and clowning them occasionally using the pimps method.
When clowning, always put the focus on the enemy, never let them put the focus on you.

The best path is start game programming when you are 9 years old.
Then get a couple of proffesional certifications when you are 12 years old like Oracle OCA, Cisco CCNA.

Eat vitamin B. Take vitamin for 3 days then stop for 4 days in a weekl, vit b is heaty. Dont take vit b if you have exam the next day because you might not sleep well.
Take vitamin on the day of your exam.
Because vit b is heaty, you might have muscle knots. Press all over your body to find a painful area.
Press hard into the painful area for 1 minute until the muscle relaxes. A lot of time it is near the interface between bone and muscle, sometimes even on scalp.
Learn Tumo meditation, you can go with weeks without eating.

Please also read Knowledge Crystals 15 11 10 or 10 10 10
http://francisseanryan.blogspot.com/2010/10/knowledge-crystals-10-10-10.html

Books to read:


Winning: The Psychology of competition by Walker Stuart
Play: How it Shapes the Brain, Opens the Imagination, and Invigorates the Soul by Stuart Brown

The dip by Seth Godin
Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin
The now habit by Neil Fiore

The 50th Law by Robert Greene
The Concise 33 Strategies of War by Robert Greene
Thick Black Theory by Zhao An Xin

Today I realize my life is an art

I realize my life is an art. Dont have to use chess, painting, starcraft, physic, philosophy to seek transcendence. i only have to adjust and make beautiful proportions to various aspects of my life. Make various parts humming with beauty and smoothness, like karate kata or starcraft.

Insights on emotions and thick face black heart

18 11 2010 Emotion cant be controlled, the more you control the stronger the emotions get.
Feeling fear when facing danger is natural. Feeling humiliated when people call you names is natural.
But you can control your actions. From actions you build experience in the particular situation and your brain plasticity accustom itself. From there only can you dispel fear.
Read Morita therapy in the internet.


19 11 2010 1:15am Thick face black heart is not about not feeling humiliation. It is about taking action and bluffing as if there is no humiliation even when you feel humiliated.

Knowledge Crystals 17 11 10

50% of life problems come from bullies. Solve your bullies, solve all your psychological problems.
You have to be unpredictable and threatening. You have to give a hard time to bullies. Bullies look for easy target and wont fight people who fight them. Power perceived is the same with power achieved.

You have to be the best in the market in order to have happiness. This the primary rule of the universe.
How to be the best? You practice, practice, practice. Even if you are slower, practice will make you the best.
This solves the other 50% of your problems.

Like Crows Zero movie, you have to pretend the fight is just a small matter, this include losing your face.
This prevent that you turn the gain too high on a control system that doesnt need to turn so high.
Smooth, smooth, smooth, a FI driver said.

To fight bullies, you need to be half evil, else you cannot fight them. Bluff poker wil let you practice.
Karate is the anchor that builds the above. If I am not around, karate will be your step father. If you forget everything, remember only karate.

Take some small pain to avoid larger pain. Pain includes work, fight, problems.
This is the secret of success for most people. If you avoid small pain, you will have much more problems. Pain is like money. You try to use small money to buy happiness and protection.
If you avoid pain of hard work and problem solving, from my long experience, bigger pain will come. Pain is also like chilly, give life an hot enjoyment. It is also gives power. The more pain you took, the more powerful you are. Observe seals training, or in your student or working life.
This is an iron law of the universe.

Emotion cant be controlled, the more you control the stronger the emotions get.
Feeling fear when facing danger is natural. Feeling humiliated when people call you names is natural.
But you can control your actions. From actions you build experience in the particular situation and your brain plasticity accustom itself. From there only can you dispel fear.
Read Morita therapy in the internet. Metamagical Themas book. A General Theory of love book.
Thick face black heart is not about not feeling humiliation. It is about taking action and bluffing as if there is no humiliation even when you feel humiliated.

A lot of times you dont have to crush your enemies because you need a relationship with them.
Then you need to half defeat them and half befriend them. You do this by insulting and clowning them occasionally using the pimps method.
When clowning, always put the focus on the enemy, never let them put the focus on you.

The best path is start game programming when you are 9 years old.
Then get a couple of proffesional certifications when you are 12 years old like Oracle OCA, Cisco CCNA.

Eat vitamin B. Take vitamin for 3 days then stop for 4 days in a weekl, vit b is heaty. Dont take vit b if you have exam the next day because you might not sleep well.
Take vitamin on the day of your exam.
Because vit b is heaty, you might have muscle knots. Press all over your body to find a painful area.
Press hard into the painful area for 1 minute until the muscle relaxes. A lot of time it is near the interface between bone and muscle, sometimes even on scalp.
Learn Tumo meditation, you can go with weeks without eating.

I realize my life is an art. Dont have to use chess, painting, starcraft, physics, philosophy to seek transcendence. i only have to adjust and make proportions to various aspects of my life. Make various parts humming with beauty, power and smoothness, like karate kata or starcraft, this is the game.

Please also read Knowledge Crystals 15 11 10 or 10 10 10
http://francisseanryan.blogspot.com/2010/10/knowledge-crystals-10-10-10.html

Books to read:

Crows Zero Movie
The 50th Law by Robert Greene
The Concise 33 Strategies of War by Robert Greene
Thick Black Theory by Zhao An Xin

17 lies that are holding you back and the truth will set you free by Steve Chandler
A general theory of love by Thomas Lewis
Winning: The Psychology of competition by Walker Stuart
Nasty People by Jay Carter

The now habit by Neil Fiore
The dip by Seth Godin
Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin
The Road Less Traveled by Scott Peck

The keys of paradox

The key to freedom is hard work and discipline. This is the paradox.
The key to peace is violence. This is the paradox.

Disciplined and Fierce

Only two qualities of the Sumo you need.

High Knowledge Crystals 30 10 2010

Be half gangster
Be the best in the market
Karate

The 50th Law by Robert Greene
Thick Black Theory by Zhao An Xin
The Dip by Seth Godin




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No need to be afraid of death because we are continuous living anyway.

Every person awareness without content is the same with each other, the only difference is the memory of the person. The memory is like a datalogger, the awareness is like a CPU.
Since everyone awareness is the same, the only difference between person is the memory. If you put your memory to another person awareness, you wont feel the difference.
When a person goes to sleep, his datalogger shuts off, the person is no no more, when the person wakes up, the datalogger loads the memory inside the CPU.
The person "dies" everytime he goes to sleep. When he wakes up the impersonal memory is loaded into the CPU, his body probably is a different copy after cells regeneration, the person is "born" or "created" again.
Some persons memory is more interesting than the others, I wont mind swapping my memory say with a rock star.
I die everytime I sleep. There is no continuity in me. My memory is just a datalogger, there are better memories. My awareness is the same with everyone.
I already die all the time. Think about this with reincarnation.

Hobby helps your work. Chess is the best hobby

Go is too long.
Poker is a bit boring, and everyone can obtain the skill.
Backgammon, bridge, guitar is not as interesting.
Starcraft, warcraft not as interesting.

Chess has the best balance.

You need a good hobby so you will have something to look forward to during difficult work, read The Now Habit by Neil Fiore.

You also need a hobby to forget about troubling things.

I am actually seeking present moment attention

Yesterday I discover I always want to lose myself using attention in mathematics, software, physics, karate, remote prairie, women, vedanta.

This means that me looking for god is actually seeking present moment attention.Attention is probably god.

Be half gangster, use pain to generate power and advantage, karate.

Be half gangster, you bully people, with evilness you dont need forgiveness but you will appreciate the strategy your opponent pull on you.

Use pain to generate power and advantage makes you study and hack hard for skill rare in the market and money flows to you.

Karate, underlying people's niceness is the brutality of animals, karate teach you how to deal with that brutality.

Karate, train you to endure pain, the nervous system needs to build additional brain wiring to push up signal to prevent running away from pain. This additional brain wiring builds character and intelligence.

The diametrically opposite approach to suffering: The warrior system

Bubul notice he has a tendency to run away from stress by using ahem, religion. But there are diametrically opposite approaches that embraces stress such as karate and Crows Zero II. Actually by his experience running away from stress causes much more problems.


Forgiveness can only work when embracing stress.

The most important war strategy

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_33_Strategies_of_War

10) Create a Threatening Presence: Deterrence Strategies.[1] Make people think they will lose, bluff if needed. People want an easy victory and will not attack if they think they will lose.
Reverse Intimidation. 1) Make bold maneuvers and bluff wisely, 2) be a threat, make sudden moves, imply aggression, 3) move irrationally, create unpredictability, act crazy, 4) Feed your opponent's paranoia by indicating capabilities that they are afraid of, 5) maintain a bad reputation, mean, nasty and non-negotiable.

Knowledge Crystals 10 10 10

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Be half gangster.
Be the best in the market.
Karate.

The 50th Law by Robert Greene
Thick Black Theory by Zhao An Xin
The Dip by Seth Godin
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Be half gangster, be the best in the market, karate. Powerful, disciplined and fierce.
Be half evil. You will not be bullied. Thick face, black heart.
Create a threatening presence. Deter bad people from bothering you.
Always fight bullies, want peace and you will be crushed.
Remember Karate if you forget everything else. Karate will be your father.
Pretend the stress event is a small matter. Crows Zero II movie.
Thick face black heart by remembering Liu Pei and Chao Chao.
Karate to self limbic regulate. Read A General Theory of Love.
Use play and love as power source for war.

Pimp method of clowning and dissing your enemies. Fight friends and enemies in degree.
Evoke enemy emotion like anger and fear.
Focus of the enemy weakness by saying "you". Never focus on yourself.
Know guerrilla warfare. Win even when weak.
Never assume other people same intelligence as you. They are usually dumber.
Focus on your hara to dispel fear and anger.
Fight bluff with counterbluff. Study poker.
Know the 33 strategies of war by Robert Greene
Think the connection between limbic resonance and hindu bakti practice. A general theory of love book.

Work hard to be the best in the market. Laziness bring more pain than hard work.
Start game programming with C and directX at 9 years old.
Get proffesional certifications like Oracle OCP, Comptia Network+
Plan your fun time first in order to be motivated to work hard.
Hobby helps your work, chess is the best hobby.
Find The Dip fences where few people can do the job.
Know how to study complex subjects. Using search engines for good books.
Break to smaller parts n do it one by one, get overview first, note down your question, find good beginner books, memorize by visualizing without reading.
Memorization is not useless, it builds neuron paths and then IQ.
Hacker life. Immerse your life in abstract things like Oracle, Linux, maths.
Karate back to basics. Hard work, fight hard.
Dont limit your challenge, challenge your limits. Moutain climbing as life meaning.
Work hard, play hard. Plan fun time first and visualize future rewards.
Seek freedom and become captive of your desires, seek discipline and find your liberty. - Karate Master Ahmad Mehanna.
If you dont work, what will you do? If he can do it, why cant you do it?

Balance paradoxical opposites. Revenge-forgiveness. Bad-good. Relax-hard work.
Don’t believe religion or mysticism. Game theory and poker really explains people.
Stress inoculate yourself. Overload stress to be imunne like Navy SEALS training.
Pretend the object is easy.
Discomfort generates pleasure. It is a gate.
Heavy weight lifting and shikodachi pain bearing generate strong body and then generate strong character. Enduring pain builds brain wiring. Dont flinch practice.
Press hard for 1 minute into the muscle knots near shoulder, neck and head.
Tumo meditation dont have to eat for months.
Vit B. To dispel fear and give energy
Dont be afraid of death. We already die everytime we go to sleep. Death is part of god.

BE HALF GANGSTER, LOVE HACKING, KARATE
Be half gangster, you bully people, with evilness you dont need forgiveness but you will appreciate the strategy your opponent pull on you.
Love hacking makes your skill rare in the market and money flows to you.
Karate, underlying people's niceness is the brutality of animals, karate teach you how to deal with that brutality.
Karate, train you to endure pain, the nervous system needs to build additional brain wiring to push up signal to prevent running away from pain. This additional brain wiring builds character and intelligence.
Be half gangster, use pain to generate power and advantage, karate.

CREATE A THREATENING PRESENCE
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_33_Strategies_of_War
10) Create a Threatening Presence: Deterrence Strategies.[1] Make people think they will lose, bluff if needed. People want an easy victory and will not attack if they think they will lose.
Reverse Intimidation. 1) Make bold maneuvers and bluff wisely, 2) be a threat, make sudden moves, imply aggression, 3) move irrationally, create unpredictability, act crazy, 4) Feed your opponent's paranoia by indicating capabilities that they are afraid of, 5) maintain a bad reputation, mean, nasty and non-negotiable.


(Books you must read in our portable harddisk and freedrive.com)
The 50th Law by Robert Greene
The Concise 33 Strategies of War by Robert Greene
Thick Black Theory by Zhao An Xin

A general theory of love by Thomas Lewis
Winning: The Psychology of competition by Walker Stuart
Nasty People by Jay Carter

The now habit by Neil Fiore
The dip by Seth Godin
Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin


(To get Oracle, Network+ and Labview certifications)
Get a practice exam to get an overview, like Transcender or Selftestsoftware.
Find beginner intuitive books by googgling "Best Oracle books" or "Best beginner PLSQL book". Then read reviews in Amazon.
Try to get free books by googling "(book title) free book"
Reading a good beginner book is extremely important.


(Top intuitive books that will set you for life)
Digital Signal Processing 101: Everything you need to know to get started by Michael Parker
Differential Equations - by Paul Blanchard available in Singapore library.
Div, Grad, Curl, and All That: An Informal Text on Vector Calculus, by H. M Schey
Who Is Fourier?: A Mathematical Adventure by Lex Tokyo, Yo Sakakibara, and Alan Gleason
What is Quantum Mechanics? A Physics Adventure - Second Edition by Transnational College of LEX
C Programming Language by Brian W. Kernighan, Dennis M. Ritchie
Head first SQL by Head First SQL by Lynn Beighley
Metamagical Themas by Douglas Hofstadter
Schrodinger Kittens by John Gribbin
Simple Chess by Michael Stean
Zuke Them by David Rudel
Hello World! Computer programming for kids by Warren Sande
Discovering chess opening by John Emms
Poems of Dennis Levertov

(Good books)
CISSP All In One Exam Guide by Shon Harris
Computer networking first step by Wendell Odom
Networking, a beginner guide by Bruce Hallberg
Linux System Administration by Vicki Stanfield singapore libraries
UNIX Systems Programming by Kay A. Robbins
C++ without fear by Brian Overland. Get it on freedrive.com user login as your mom.
Modern Operating Systems by Andrew Tanenbaum
Counter hack by Edward Skoudis
http://www.jbmelectronics.com/product/tcp.htm .Also available in our portable drive

Easy Oracle PL/SQL programming by John Garmany
Oracle 11g for dummies
Sams Teach yourself PLSQL in 21 days
Oracle SQL Tuning by Dan Tow
The art and science of Oracle Performance tuning
Oracle Performance Tuning for 10gR2 by Gavin JT Powell
Oracle SQL high performance tuning by Guy Harrison
Always use Selftestsoftware Study Guides to pass certification exams.

The Complete Hedgehog by Sergey Shipov
500 points in 400 days by Michael De La Maza
Pirc Alert by Lev Alburt

The poker mindset by Matthew Hilger
Heads-Up No-Limit Hold 'em by Collin Moshman
Every Hand Reviewed by Gus Hansen.
Poker videos in youtube, like High Stakes Poker

Crows Zero II movie
17 lies that are holding you back and the truth will set you free by Steve Chandler
On Combat, the psychology and physiology of deadly conflict by Dave Crossman
Reinvent Yourself by Steve Chandler
100 Ways To Motivate Yourself by Steve Chandler
How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.
The Survivor personality by Al Siebert.
The art of always being right by Schopenhauer, Arthur
Any game theory book. Any strategy book.
Discovering Gerard by Michael Kirwan
Philosophy books by A.C. Grayling, or Roger Scruton.
Introducing Foucault, Introducing Derrida, Introducing Postmodernism
Commanders at war in youtube.
The pimp game by Mickey Royal
How to be a pimp article. In our portable drive.
Top dog bottom dog by Robert Karen
Emotional vampires by Albert Bernstein
How full is your bucket by Tom Rath
Get anyone to do anything by David Lieberman
The art of strategy by Dixit
The art of the strategist by William Cohen
Jack Trout on strategy by Jack Trout
The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr.
Outliers by Malcome Gladwell
Winning: The Psychology of competition by Walker Stuart
Play by Stuart Brown
Free play by Setphen Nachmanovitch
Stripping the gurus by Geoffrey D. Falk
Top Secret: The Truth Behind Today's Pop Mysticisms by Robert M. Price
The Road Less Traveled by Scott Peck
Deep Survival: Who Lives, Who Dies, and Why by Laurence Gonzales
Learned Optimism: How to Change Your Mind and Your Life by Martin E. P. Seligman
The naked warrior by Pavel



(Detail explainations from old knowledge cyrstals)
1.If you know war, everywhere you'll be happy.
1. War is the most accurate metaphor to describe what life is really about. Life is about limited resources and grapping as much resources as you can using your existing limited resources like time and energy. 2. War describes accurately the most important strategies of life that work like fight bullies and work hard to be the best. 3. Read every strategy book you can. Watch every Commanders at war videos on youtube you can. 4. Use a battlefield metaphor for every situations in life, with battlefield metaphor you can have a bird eye view giving you detachment and planning which is upmost important in fighting to win. 5. You need to have arrougance knowing that you are smarter and better than other people, you need to be a psychopath, then only you can destroy your enemy. If only humidity you will be timid and lazy. 6. From my experience, the most accurate model for dealing with problems of life is the battlefield and strategic thinking; war. The other models like religion, psychological healing, morality, meditation, doesnt work at all. In a battlefield, healing your past does not help you, you have to know the realistic terrain, survive and kill the enemy quickly.7. Battlefield thinking gives you a bird eye view. Being a efficient fighter, you need both tunnel vision and bird eye view simultaneously. Two opposite poles create the balance for effective fight.8. Battlefield model thinking gives you detachment.9. Forget about healing and forgiveness and new age fluffy stuff. Your emotional problems will continue to stay if your physical realities such as money and job and bullying tied to your survival has problems. No amount of healing your inner child will help.10. Thus you need to think of your self as a general. Manage your resources, calculate your risk of fighting.11. Watch all the battlefield analysis documentary you can find. Like "Commanders at War" in youtube.com. Read all the war strategy book in business and life you can find. 11. Its all about strategy. Strategy let the weaker guy win. 12. War thinking gives your critical thinking. 13. Study how Spartans train up their kids, how all the tribal initiations involves beating up their kids and their kids should just smile and pretend not painful, study the Navy Seals hell week in youtube.com. 14. War thinking makes you impersonal.

2. Work hard to be the best in the market
1. You have to be the best in the market.You need to have a skill that few people can do it.Skills like programming, medicine, engineering, drawing, business etc.Getting these skills requires hard work and withstand boredom.That is why few people can do it.
And the money will go to the person who is the best in the skill.To be good in the skill you have to work at it spending long hours.
2. People want the best.You don’t have to be good in a lot of thing.But you have to be the best in one or two things.Then only people will give money for your service.3. You need to put in hard work and withstand boredom of learning and practicing to become the best.But the suffering required is much less than the suffering of being average and don’t have money.Just watch the old janitors to see how much suffering they have.4. You must study a complicated subject that few people can stand the boredom to master it.
This is the gateway that keep other people out.Like dentistry or Oracle or Digital signal processing or Labview.5. You have to have passion with the skill.Play with the skill.Dont care about other people, be with the skill constantly.It has to be mystical.6. The skill has to grow organically, slowly like wine making.Only long term being with the skill can the skill grow strong and firm.Dont be afraid being slower than others, being slow means you are growing the skill stronger than the rest. 7. Strength is important but spirit is more important.

3. Be half evil
1. Only evil can fight evil.Watch "Chronicals of Riddick" movies.Or imitate the vampires or other underworld beings. 2. Thick face, black heart. Imitate the heros Thick face means you don't care about shame and moral. It is your value.Thick face black heart is a very useful knife if you can use it.How to have Thick Face Black heart, you cannot use any visualization technique.Remember instead the hero story you have read and activate your imitation reflex.The best thick face story is the Chinese King Liu Pei in Thick Face Black Heart book.Imagine you are one of the thick face hero not affected by difficult enviroment. Thick Black Theory book. 3. To win you have to manipulate people. There is no choice. 4. By having an evil archetype in your heart, you can fight bad people naturally and with enjoyment. 5. To fight evil people, you must be “Go Lan” (rotten enough in mandarin)

4. Karate and poker.
1. Karate and Poker condences all the knowledge above and let you practice it. If you forget everything, you only need to remember these two. 2. Karate is like putting an iron rod into your lower back, even if you want to curl or collapse from fear, the iron rod won't let you. Karate is your religion. http://www.facebook.com/topic.php?uid=15675864105&topic=6462 3. Poker teach you it is good to bluff, to be half evil. Poker is the crystal of game theory. You know the secret of all human interaction.

5. Game theory.
1. This world is all about war and getting the upper hand. Sooner you know this, the better. Why conflict all of the time? Study every game theory book you know. 2. Learn the chicken game, the prisoners dilemma, the wolf sheep dynamics, how animals display without seriously injuring one another, how craziness can be beneficial, forgiveness and revenge.

6. Fight bullies and fear
1. Always fight back bullies. After you get bullied would you go to therapy to cure yourself and get bullied again tomorrow? No psychological therapy or religion can heal your anger or shame. Only fight back the bully can heal your shame. Bullies only bully people that are afraid to fight back. Bullies will stop if you fight back even if you are weaker than the bully.This is the iron rule: bully would not bully the person who fights back. 2. People seldom bully physically. They bully psychologically.They try to shame you in subtle ways. To make you get depression.Pride is like oxigen, you need it to live. Enemies attacks this.You must have no shame. You must face as thick as the wall of china.You must not let the enemy affect your emotions, this is the aim of the manipulators.
On the other hand you must affect your enemy emotion actively. Attack is the best defense. 3. Bully is actually attacking.Attacking is a form of control of you.You take away the bully control by fighting back and the bully lost interest.Bully only want easy meat. Not difficult meat. 4. It is also more difficult to be bullied when you are the best in what you do. 5. By giving into the bully, billy taught Ryan that his intimidating behavior was okay. Standing up to him early, even if it meant being beaten up, would have been better than speending a whole year in pain. Almost all bullies pick on people who wont fight back. They use intimidation and are rarely interested in real conflict. – The Survivor Personality. 6. When you submit to an aggressors or to an unjust and imposssible situation. You do not buy yourself any real peace. You encourage people to go further, to take more from you, to use you for their own purposes. They sense your lack of self respect and they feel justified in mistreating you. You must develop the opposite - afighting stance that comes from deep within and cannot be shaken. You force some respect. 7. This comes from your attitude - fearless and alwyas prepared to fight. It radiates outward and can be read in your amnner without you having to speak a word. By a paradoxical alw of human nature, trying to please people less will make them ore likely in the long run to respect and treat you better. 8.Theis inner strength, however, does not come naturally. What is required is some experience. This means that in your daily life you must assert yourself more than usual. – The 50th La. 8. There is one iron rule about bullies, they only pick on easy target, target that wont fight back, target that is afraid of the risk of fighting back. 9. There is another iron rule. Bullies stay away from people who fights back.10. Read the book "The 50th Law". Watch people that dont get bullied, they are usually people who will fight back, difficult people, the bad people, the mean people.11. Look at the animal world, its the same, even smaller, the wolverine fights back, and the wolves back off http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VoKioxH-5Q&feature=related
Almost all emotional problems are due to bullies or your skill is not best in the market. solve this by fighting back bullies, and work hard to make your skill the best. Life is simple actually. 12. when enemy detect you not afraid of dying, they wont bully you. 13. 90% of your life problems come from bullying.Bullies only attack the meek people even if the meek one is big. They dont attack aggressive one even if the fiesty one is smaller. So always fight back bullies, this is the way to protect yourself. You dont have to kill the enemy totally, but make it very unpleasant for him to take your lunch box.Watch videos of wolves afraid to bully a small wolverine in youtube or documentaries http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VoKioxH-5Q And free play, dont care about the results of your fight. Then you have no fear or regrets. And have both polarities simutaneously in your. To be evil to fight bullies and be nice to have cooperation alternately, to rest and work hard altenately in order to become the best in the market. 14. Drinking a little beer everyday make me more courageous to confront the enemy. Chinese said the liver controls the temper and courage. 15. When you fight he bully you can pretend this is playing to give your more courage.

7. Fight bullies and friends in degree
1. But you can't always start all out war with bullies in a group.Sometimes you still need to be in cooperation with a group.
So slowly invade the bully degree by degree using teasing, jokes and gentle insult. 2. Sometimes you have to use the hard way.
But know that a lot of times respect can only be gained by inviduals using fight.The process is this, fight first and only corperate and become friends.First hot war, then cold war, then friends. This is the usual process. 3. When you fight, always say "you".
Put the focus on the enemy.Push the enemy ball back to him. Never become defensive and put the focus on yourself. THe enemy tactic is to put focus on you.Read any books by David Liebermann. 4. ALways attack the bully.If you only defend, the bully control your movement and attack you at will.When you forget about defense and attack the enemy even when he is attacking you, you control the enemy.This is just like chess.5. Use the pimps method.When you are hanging out, come up with something to say to every person in the vicinity.Be ready to 'clown' someone if they question your pimpitude.Always use like or as during the 'diss'.
Only bring someone's moms in to the insult if you are ready to throw hands.CLOWN AND DISS AND BLUFF YOUR ENEMIES
6. If you play poker you will discover all bullying is a form of bluffing.You counterbluff the enemy back.You can also use bluff to boost your self confidence.7. Bluff means pretending you are more powerful than you really are.All manipulators action is actually bluffing.When they bluff you, you counter bluff the manipulators back.You can even bluff knowing that the enemy knows you are bluffing. This is call thick face bluff.Poker teaches bluffing well.8. Know the enemy is bluffing. Then the fake power of the enemy is exposed. 8. To have a really strong and respectful friendship or working relationship You cannt always be nice and polite to your friend. You sometimes have to be mean and punch your friend a little. THen only your friend will respect you and true friendship comes out. Cycle this a few times.Love and conflict are two poles, keep them both in you.You have to be balance in sane and crazy, alternately.

8. Balance and tune paradoxical opposites
1. Survivors puzzled me at first. They are serious and humoours, hard working and lazy, self confident and self critical. They are not one way or the other, they are both one way and the other. Sensitive-tough, strong-gentle, cowardly-courageous, mature-playful, humorous- serious, distant-friendly, self confident-self critical, trusting-cautious, dependent- independent, impulsive-well organized, happy-discontent, cooperative-rebellious, proud -humble, selfish-unselfish, lazy-hardwworking, involved-detached, logical-creative, calm-emotional,shy-bold, loving-angry,consistent-unpredictable,messy-net,optimistic- pessimistic - The Survivor Personality2. Men’s biggest weakness is shame.And bullies use subtle psychological manipulation to invoke shame in you.You counter shame by giving unconditional compassion for your mistakes and short coming.This is in accordance to ying and yang theory, where the weak ying actually nourishes the strong yang, yang cannot operate alone.So you are not paralyzed by shame or fear.In this world there is ying and yang. War is yang. Love and forgiveness is ying.Yang and ying must compliment and help each other. Ying will nourish yang and help yang become strong.But however mindfulness is probably much more effective. 3. Every person has some degree of personality disorder.Each personality disorder is polarity. You need to choose the right polarity for situations.For instance if you have too much stress, you are in too much obsessive compulsive disorder,you need to balance by using anti social personality disorder.If you lack self confidence having codependent personality disorder, you need to put in more narsicissitic personality disorder.Read the book Emotional Vampires by.4. Polarites means opposites in chinese ying and yang theory.Like good and bad, lazy and hard work, lies and truth, hard and soft.YOu must accept all the polarities and dont reject any.You must be able to use all the polarities because they are needed in all situations.Lacking one polarity even a bad one is like walking without left leg.You need to know how much proportion of ying and yang in any situation.This is done by tuning. Like how you tune a car or karate.5. In chaos theory, the universe is made of self similar objects.This is call fractals.For example a country ministry is just like subpersonalities in your mind.Your personal boundary is just like the border of a country.Your friends war is just war of countries.Use fractals as metaphors to understand a lot of conflicts.Country is a good fractal comparison to inter human relationship.6. How much black to use, how much white to use. This need tuning. Just like tuning a car.Or tuning oracle, or tuning your karate. Find the best combination that can combat the situation. 7. Keep two opposites together for balance for effectiveness in battle fieldMust have both polarities in your.To be evil to fight bullies and to be nice to have cooperation, alternately.To rest hard and work hard, alternately, in order to become the best in the market.

9.Free play: Work very hard then dont care about the result.

10. People admire bold, crazy and aggressive people.
1. Bullies and ordinary people will be nice to you. 2. You get promoted more easily. 3. You have power over them. 4. You win in poker this way. 5. Crazyness is actually unpredictability, a strategy detailed out by game theory.

11. Overload yourself to get stronger. Deliberate practice
1. The brain is like a plastic like. To get to the top, you need to master a lot of difficult situation, else you will always be a loser and poor. I have seen this over and over again in engineering work, there is always gate to separate the tough guys from the weaklings.
2. The only way to be tough is by getting use to difficult people and situations, don’t avoid it.3. And to make your mind and body strong you use overloading. In Shitoryu karate, the coach push you to your limit and then some more to make your muscle and nervous system stronger.4. Overloading is actually deliberate practice. Research shows to be expert in any field requires 10,000 hours of practice. 5. Deliberate practice: Keep on practicing until you become the best. 6. You practice you skill to become the best and fight bullies naturally.Deliberate practice.At first walking, playing xbox, spelling, remembering english words is very difficult, but you practice daily.Now it becomes as easy as breathing, you dont have to think about it.So it should be like this for you chosen skill, like Oracle, Labview, mathematics, quantum theory.Actually practicing is not hard work. You just spend time with it often like talking english words.So fighting the bullies is like this.At first you make mistakes but later it become easier and easier and you are insulting bullies like breathing.Your brain is like a plasticine, you mold it to a shape by constant practicing.You are what you are now because of deliberate practice applied upon you by school and parents.Now you apply deliberate practice by your own will and create what you want.Then you become best in the market, power and money flows to you. 7. karate spirit is of great importance. No matter who wins or loses, dies or stays alive, - most important is training, process, fight and the "Way" itself. When you are free from idea of winning and losing, you are immersed in the spirit of Budo and enjoy every moment of the Way, irrespective of winning or losing. Hear these words and you will become great karateka. 8. Studying and memorizing Oracle and labview was very difficult, but paradoxically make my life much more easier because I got extremely smart and life problems are easy to solve. I can easily attack my enemy also.

12. Passion
To be very good in what you do, you have to work hard. But asking you to work hard is hard to motivate you.Having passion for the work is much better.When you have passion for something, working hard is automatic, and the hardships doesnt seem to exist.
Dont falsely believe you need to find your true passion.Actually anything can be your passion. You just need to know enough of the thing and you will come to love it.You have to study the thing first and know a bit about it so it can become your passion.
Then you want to know more and more about the thing. Passion is when you want to be a master of the thing, a guru of the thing.
Like dentistry, or Oracle, or Labview.

13a.Know how to study and research complex subjects.
1. How to study a complicated book: a. Scan the book first. b. Know what is the goal of each chapter. c. Get understanding. Then dig into the details. d. Write what you don’t understand on a notebook. e. If you get stuck in a book, find another good book. f. Read good beginner books first that gives a intuitive understanding. g. Find the good books in Amazon reviews. It is very important you find a few good beginner book to read. h. This is the fastest way to memorize what you read. Everytime you read some small fact, look away and try to visualize back what you read. If you can visualize that means your brain already can remember it.
2. For subjects like Oracle, quantum theory, number mathematics, differential equations,digital signal processing, fluid mechanics. Few people can understand.Always find and read a beginner book first to build concept.Never start with a reference book first. It will kill your passion.A complicated subject is just a lot of small easy subjects combine together. 3. To study a thick book, get an overall idea first by reading quickly through the book,read the table of contents, the introduction at each chapter. Don't go into the details.Then Focus on the goal of the book, every human endeavor is trying to achieve something, if you know what is the target the details is easy.Then you read the details to get an understanding.Facts you dont understand write it down on a notebook for later solving.Then you read deeper into the details.Then You refer to other books for facts you don't understand. 4. You refer a lot of books and find a few best books that give intuitive understanding. Read through the passage a few times even if you dont understand it. Slow is smooth, smooth is fast. Like wine brewing. 5. Don't think that abstract science is dry and boring.Math or Oracle is actually a higher evolution of nature into the non material world.Looking at math pattern is the sameas looking at a forest.Reading a luminous math book that switch on the light in a dark room is the greatest joy.The patterns are beautiful. It is a different world only much more beautiful than the material world.Spend your time in the non material beauty by reading math books.Exploring math is like exploring into a beautiful forest.Upload yourself into the non material world. 6.Practice, practice, practice -A great samurai warrior, this is call drilling and is most important aspect of gaining technology. 7.Being the best is not difficult.As long as you know how to read and write you can be the expert in any field like Oracle or number theory;
learning these is easier than English.You need to be constant be with it. Let it soak in to you like language osmosis.You have to love it. 8. You dont have to criticize yourself for learning slow or listen to other people. Because all brain neurons have the same molecules and require the same time for all humans to rewire itself.We are slower learners compared to other people, but once we learned something we are much better than other people.Refer to our programming, karate, and math.It seems like our brain performs comprehensive rewiring and it takes more time than other people.Good wine need a long time to brew, you cannot rush it, and the wine we brew is the best.So don’t worry, start slow, don’t care about other people, enjoy yourself in your object like Oracle,
know the beauty of it, this is what life all about. 9. Always go back to basic. Refer kihon in karate. 10. Do the sample exam questions because this gives you a focus, like a tunnel drilling machines. Buy selftestsoftware for Oracle.

13b.Know how to study and research complex subjects. – Handle big projects
1. a. Break it down to smaller parts. b. Pretend that the job is easy. c. Perform a task to 80 percent perfection. If you aim for 100 percent, you will have trouble starting and fear of failure. d. Push your limits. go outside of human norm.This make your stronger because your brain is plastic. e. Reframe fear as a challenge. The bigger the fear, the bigger the excitement. f. Do one thing at a time. 2.The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr. The now habit by Neil Fiore

13c.Know how to study and research complex subjects - Know how to research and solve problems
Have an edge over other people. Use internet search engine like Google or Yahoo. Ask questions about life in internet forums like Oracle forum or Low Yatt forum.Use Amazon.com search engine and type in the book related to your problems.Read the reviews in Amazon, it has a lot of details about the book.Use Singapore library search engine to find the good book in Amazon. Reserve the book.Search the rapidshare or bit torrent for free copy of the book.

14. Work hard, play hard
1. You work the hardest, then you play hard to recharge, and make you enjoy work hardest again. 2. This is a cycle. A paradoxical opposite again. Ying and yang.

15. Hacking: Immerse your life in abstract subject.
1. Then there is no boredom. Life is a adventure everyday. You go into a blissful state. You are playing with toys forever. Work is play. You dont have to fix to one subject you can be an expert in many subjects. Refer to Iron Man movie. 2. Oracle, network security, Labview, Linux, quantum theory, computational fluid mechanics, ocean wave mechanics, weather differential equations, number theory, Lisp, C++, control system, Go, chess, bridge, backgammon, western philosophy eg Roger Scruton, poetry, karate.

16. Dont believe in things that doesnt work
1. Like putting your head in a hole in the middle of a battlefield. I wasted 20 years on this. 2. New age, pop psychology, religion, inner child healing, mindfulness, rebirthing, deep breathing, yoga, buddhism, christianity, god, meditation, nirvana, no ego, enlightenment, avaita, zen, visualization, relaxation, aikido, NLP, positive thinking, positive psychology, self esteem, ayn rand, forgiveness, let it go, feel your feelings, being open, being in the now, primal therapy, trauma therapy, childhood therapy, afterworld, acupuncture, EFT, rapid eye therapy, Kinesiology, self healing. 3. Don’t think that if you meditate enough, you reach nirvana and don’t need for money, status or anything. Read the hypocritical life of spiritual gurus in Stripping the Gurus book.

17.Have a big tank to put in suffering and not bothered by it.
1. All successful people have a capacity for more suffering than the average person. Just look at the generals and top scholars stories, they make huge mistakes yet they carry on. Successful people are the ones that make most mistakes and carry on. Because mistakes give them experience required for expert knowledge. 2. Imagine you have a big space in your self to put in suffering and not bothered by it. This is detachment best visualized. 3. Put your past regrets and mistakes into the big tank. Dont try to erase the regrets to protect your vanity, leave the regrets unmolested and let them be.

18. Hobby helps your work. Chess is the best hobby
Go is too long.
Poker is a bit boring, and everyone can obtain the skill.
Backgammon, bridge, guitar is not as interesting.
Starcraft, warcraft not as interesting.
Chess has the best balance.
You need a good hobby so you will have something to look forward to during difficult work, read The Now Habit by Neil Fiore.
You also need a hobby to forget about troubling things.

19. No need to be afraid, we are already continuously dying.
Every person awareness without content is the same with each other, the only difference is the memory of the person. The memory is like a datalogger, the awareness is like a CPU.
Since everyone awareness is the same, the only difference between person is the memory. If you put your memory to another person awareness, you wont feel the difference.
When a person goes to sleep, his datalogger shuts off, the person is no no more, when the person wakes up, the datalogger loads the memory inside the CPU.
The person "dies" everytime he goes to sleep. When he wakes up the impersonal memory is loaded into the CPU, his body probably is a different copy after cells regeneration, the person is "born" or "created" again.
Some persons memory is more interesting than the others, I wont mind swapping my memory say with a rock star.
I die everytime I sleep. There is no continuity in me. My memory is just a datalogger, there are better memories. My awareness is the same with everyone.
I already die all the time. Think about this with reincarnation.

20. Dennis Levertov veiw of Death:
Dennis Levertov explores the idea that there can be peace in death. She also begins to suggest that nothing is a part of God. "Nothingness" and darkness are no longer just reasons to doubt and agonize over.

21 Relax enjoyment leads to winning
From Winning: The Psychology Of Competition:
If competence is attained, Winning will follow.
There is no reason to disparage the desirability of winning. What is necessary, however, is to recognize that although winning is the object of the game, it is not the object of playing the game. page 39
The more the competitor enjoys and attributes significance to the play itself, the more likely he is to win. The essence of winning behavior is relaxed enjoyment, playing the game. page 40
A number of balances must be struck: between aggressiveness and passivity, between greed and complacency, between impulsivity and intellectualization. most races, and all series demand these balances, demand equanimity, but there are times and places for marked variation from the happy medium. page 119


Misc
1. Vit B can usually instantly cure your fatigue, depression, anxiety. But if you eat too much, you cant sleep and you have muscle ache. So eat for 3 days, stop for 4 days or so. Before exam don’t eat for 2 days because you may have problem sleeping. At the morning of the exam, eat it for energy and aggressive brain. 2. Muscle ache in the necks and shoulders are caused by muscle knots. Press all over your neck, scalp and shoulder to find pain when press down or hard spots. After you find the painful spot, press down hard on the spot for at least half minute. The muscle in spasm can only relax with great pressure for more than half minute. The bone at scalp and shoulder blades are usually the muscle knot areas. 3. Garlic can cure cancer and bird flu and fatigue, eat a lot of it. 4. There are chi kung and meditation that can make you no need for food and drinks for months. Check out the internet for yogis who don’t have to eat. This is important during environmental disasters and war in your time. 5. If you have cancer, eat garlic and do chi kung. 6. A lot of times your mental problem is due to lack of water. Drink a cup of water. 7. Good sayings: If you dont work what would you do? The good point of technology is once you know it you will never lose it. Face fear, conquer fear, be feared. If he do it, why cant you do it?

Tune your life

If your life too much discomfort, lie down close your eyes, and dont care about your fuck ups.

If your life too boring, no hobby can help, then get discomfort, set a challenge, climb a mountain.

Knowledge Crystal to Sean and Ryan 12 Sept 2010

Knowledge Crystal to Sean and Ryan 12 Sept 2010

Just two things, study hard, fight hard
In every situation, there is always a counter strategy.
Be half evil. You will not be bullied. Thick face, black heart.
Always fight bullies. Wolves are happy, sheep are sad. To find peace, master violence.
Remember Karate if you forget everything else. Karate will be your father.
Work hard to be the best in the market. Laziness bring more pain than hard work.
Vit B. To dispel fear and give energy
Pretend that the stress event is very small matter. Imitate Crows Zero II movie.

Thick face black heart by remembering Liu Pei and Chao Chao.
Fight bluff with counterbluff.
Pimp method of clowning and dissing your enemies. Fight people in degree.
You have to look toward conflict. This is the only way to deal with the biggest human fear.
Evoke enemy emotion.
Thick of the enemy weakness. Never yourself.
Know guerrilla warfare. Win even if you are weak.
Never assume other people same intelligence as you. They are usually dumber.
Focus on your hara to dispel fear and anger.
Know the 33 strategies of war by Robert Greene

Balance paradoxical opposites. Revenge, forgiveness. Bad, good. Relax, hard work.
Don’t believe religion or mysticism. Game theory and poker really explains people.
Stress inoculate yourself. SEALS training so you are immune to stress.
Pretend the object is easy.
Discomfort generates pleasure. It is a gate.
Heavy weight lifting generate strong mind.
Press hard for 1 minute into the muscle knots near shoulder, neck and head.
Tumo meditation dont have to eat for months.

Find dip gates where few people can do the job.
Know how to study complex subjects. Using search engines for good books.
Break to smaller parts, note down your question, get overview first, find good beginner books.
Hacker life. Immerse your life in abstract things like Oracle, Linux, maths.
Dont limit your challenge, challenge your limits. This is life meaning.
Work hard, play hard. Plan fun time first and visualize future rewards.



(Books you must read in our portable harddisk and freedrive.com)
Crows Zero II movie
The 50th Law by Robert Greene
The Concise 33 Strategies of War by Robert Greene
Thick Black Theory by Zhao An Xin
On Combat, The Psychology and Physiology of Deadly Conflict in War and in Peace" By Dave Crossman

Winning: The Psychology of competition by Walker Stuart
The dip by Seth Godin
Outliers by Malcome Gladwell
Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin


(To get Oracle, Network+ and Labview certifications)
Get a practice exam to get an overview, like Transcender or Selftestsoftware.
Find beginner intuitive books by googgling "Best Oracle books" or "Best beginner PLSQL book". Then read reviews in Amazon.
Try to get free books by googling "(book title) free book"
Reading a good beginner book is extremely important.

Important thoughts

1.Revenge too much will drive you insane. Balance this with forgiveness.

2. "On Combat, The Psychology and Physiology of Deadly Conflict in War and in Peace" By Dave Crossman. A must read book.

3. Find a good book that helps you understand complicated subject is the most important move. I could not understand DSP for years, even after reading many books. But after reading DSP101 book, I completely understand DSP.

1. Use google and type "best DSP (or Oracle or networking) book".
2. Go to Amazon and search for 5 star books.
3. Read the reviews in Amazon.
4. Search the book in Singapore library search webpage.
5. Use google and type " free book" to get the book free if possible.
6. If the book doesnt help understanding, get another book.

4. Crows Zero II is a movie that embody my major philosophy : Not afraid of suffering and death. FIght. Karate also embody this. Let it be your touchstone.

No matter what happens, fight.

A very good DSP book and complex math book, Your mom is my subconscious

Today i have a revelation that your mother is actually my subconscious. Yesterday I watched the movie "Youth without youth" by Francis Coppola.

Digital Signal Processing 101: Everything you need to know to get started by Michael Parker is one of the best tech books starting from the very simple leading your way to the complex. Highly intuitive and great book.

IT is the best

Engineering got a lot of problems. You can't touch the equipment that easily and a lot of engineering you have to learn from low IQ techs when you are new, and information doesnt come by easily.

IT information comes by easily, you can get certification with only a laptop, high IT is very complicated so you can get pay high more easily than engineering, and high IT is fun.

Get this two certification. You can do it by age 13 at home.

Oracle:
1z0-147
Ocp: Oracle8I Dba SQL and Pl/SQL Study Guide by Chip Dawes and Biju Thomas
Selftestsoftware self study
Selftestsoftware practice questions for 147 ( a must)

1z0-007
OCA/OCP: Introduction to Oracle9i SQL Study Guide Chip Dawes (Author), Biju Thomas (Author)
Selftestsoftware self study
Selftestsoftware practice questions for 007 ( a must)


CCNA:
CCNA: Cisco Certified Network Associate Study Guide: Exam 640-802 by Todd Lammle
CCNA Official Exam Certification Library (Exam 640-802) by Wendell Odom (Author)
Trancender practice questions ( a must)

Just be good in Karate and Oracle

Just be good in Karate and Oracle.

And your life will be fine.

Winning: The pychology of Competition

From Winning: The Psychology Of Competition


If competence is attained, Winning will follow.

There is no reason to disparage the desirability of winning. What is necessary, however, is to recognize that although winning is the object of the game, it is not the object of playing the game. page 39

The more the competitor enjoys and attributes significance to the play itself, the more likely he is to win. The essence of winning behavior is relaxed enjoyment, playing the game. page 40

A number of balances must be struck: between aggressiveness and passivity, between greed and complacency, between impulsivity and intellectualization. most races, and all series demand these balances, demand equanimity, but there are times and places for marked variation from the happy medium. page 119

New Knowledge Crystal July 13, 2010

***

1.Relax, enjoy the game, then you will win every time.

2.Always fight bullies and manipulators to have peace. To Find Peace, Master Violence.

3.Work hardest to be the best in the market so can be lazy in future.

4.Only remember Karate if you forget everything. Karate will be your father.

5.Be half evil and show it to avoid hassles.

6.Game theory and poker explain why people are the way they are, not religion or new age.

7.Fight bullies and friends in degree. Use the pimp's joking, dissing, and clowning the enemy.

8.Balance and tune paradoxical opposites.

9.Guerrilla warfare, the weak can win.

10.Thick face black heart by just thinking about the heroes.

11.Think of the enemy weakness, never think about yourself.

12.Goal is to evoke enemy emotion and not let them evoke yours.

13.Never assume people same intelligence as you, they could be much dumber.

14.Dont believe new age, or religion, or mysticism.

15.Focus on your hara to dispel fear and anger.

16.Dont seek freedom directly but through discipline.

17.Know how to study and research complex subjects using search engines for good books.

18.Work hard, play hard with planning your play time first, visualize reward always move you forward.

19.Hacking: Immerse your life in the most abstract things like Linux, Oracle, mathematics.

20.Overload yourself to get stronger and deliberate practice. Like SEAL training.

21.Pretend the object is easy.

(Books you must read)

The 50th Law by Robert Greene

Winning: The Psychology of competition by Walker Stuart

Thick Black Theory by Zhao An Xin

The dip by Seth Godin

Outliers by Malcome Gladwell

Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin

***

thoughts to be sorted out.

hide and run away

hara: Keep your focus on the three inch below your navel to remain rooted to the ground. Rooting to the ground prevents you from being angry, so you can kill the enemy efficiently. It probably has to do with stabilizing the

limbic system. Read A General Theory of Love and Ramachandra brain science.

keep the opposite polarity tight together, like gyaku and zazen. afer attack must retreat or else enemy can attack you.

whether can apply or not, thick face black heart is simple

hara

dont seek freedom directly but through discipline

thick face black heart. imitation of the heroes, but also fight back like the cow herders

people usually think about themselves only.

dont think of yourself, think of the enemy weakness for attack. THink about self is defensive just like in video shooting game where you are defensive when the missile hit you.

game theory and poker explains why people are the way they are, not religion

knitting perform simple actions in time of stress.

memory helps understanding.

fight to avoid fight.dont think of yourself. simplify like karate. think u better than enemy. Polarity is too complicated. Guerrilla warfare.

defend by attack.

thick face is like muai thai fighting banging at each other, dont defend, the one that lasts win.

to get thick face, think of any think face hero, the brain has imitation reflex.

pretend the object is easy

think of the rewards bring motivation, think of failure bring negativity, balance this two.

game theory dont be nice early. prisioner dilemmma.

future time book.

bird eye view and detail study together. Remember always dual core.

Huang: No need to repay me, but I can help you help yourself. Join my gang, and you'll learn important qualities like discipline and self respect and how to intimidate and bully people yourself.

half pain half pleasure, best balance. Half forgive, half revenge. Half good, half bad. Half dont care, half care. Half hard work, half lazy. Half no care of face, half care of face.

see the fear in the enemy

have to swim forward

pride is like air, manipulators attacks the pride.

Look toward your fun time to counter balance stress

life goal and meaning as a series of challenging your limits. dont limit your challenge, challenge your limit.

no matter what happens, fight.

sucess is the ability to move to one failure to another with enthusiasm.

Finally got tthe book "How to manipulate the manipulator"

Out of print now costing $126. Finally found a book store that sells to our country.

This is a very important book.

Seek discipline to find freedom

Seek freedom and become captive of your desires, seek discipline and find your liberty. - Karate Master Ahmad Mehanna.

A very good discription of how to balance opposites

From amazon editorial reviews of the book

Power and Love: A Theory and Practice of Social Change by Adam Kahane:

"The two typical ways that people try to solve their toughest group, community, and societal problems are fundamentally flawed. They either push for what they want at all costs--in its most extreme form, this means war--or try to avoid conflict, sweeping problems under the rug in the name of a superficial "peace." But there is a better way: synthesizing these two seemingly contradictory approaches.

Adam Kahane argues that the two typical ways reflect two distinct, fundamental drives: power, the single-minded desire to achieve one's purpose, and love, the drive to unite with others. Both of these drives are inextricably part of being human, and so to achieve lasting change you have to able to work fluidly with both. In fact, each needs the other. As Martin Luther King Jr. put it, "Power with-out love is reckless and abusive, and love without power is sentimental and anemic."

Kahane delves deeply into the dual nature of power and love, exploring their subtle and intricate interplay. With disarming honesty he relates how, through trial and error, he learned to balance between them, shifting from one to the other as though learning to walk--at first falling down, then stumbling forward, and then moving steadily toward sustainable, systemic solutions."

Knowledge Crystals 27 May 2010

***
1.If you know war, everywhere you'll be happy.
2.Work hardest to be the best in the market.
3.Be half evil.

4.Karate and poker.
5.Game theory.
6.Fight bullies and fear.
7.Fight bullies and friends in degree.
8.Balance and tune paradoxical opposites.
9.Free play: Work very hard then dont care about the result.

10.People admire bold and aggressive people.
11.Overload yourself to get stronger. Deliberate practice.
12.Passion.
13.Know how to study and research complex subjects.
14.Work hard, play hard.
15.Hacking: Immerse your life in abstract subject.
16.Dont believe in things that doesnt work.
17.Have a big tank to put in suffering and not bothered by it.
***
(Books you must read)
The 50th Law by Robert Greene
How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.
The dip by Seth Godin
Outliers by Malcome Gladwell
Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin
***

1.If you know war, everywhere you'll be happy.
1. War is the most accurate metaphor to describe what life is really about. Life is about limited resources and grapping as much resources as you can using your existing limited resources like time and energy. 2. War describes accurately the most important strategies of life that work like fight bullies and work hard to be the best. 3. Read every strategy book you can. Watch every Commanders at war videos on youtube you can. 4. Use a battlefield metaphor for every situations in life, with battlefield metaphor you can have a bird eye view giving you detachment and planning which is upmost important in fighting to win. 5. You need to have arrougance knowing that you are smarter and better than other people, you need to be a psychopath, then only you can destroy your enemy. If only humidity you will be timid and lazy. 6. From my experience, the most accurate model for dealing with problems of life is the battlefield and strategic thinking; war. The other models like religion, psychological healing, morality, meditation, doesnt work at all. In a battlefield, healing your past does not help you, you have to know the realistic terrain, survive and kill the enemy quickly.7. Battlefield thinking gives you a bird eye view. Being a efficient fighter, you need both tunnel vision and bird eye view simultaneously. Two opposite poles create the balance for effective fight.8. Battlefield model thinking gives you detachment.9. Forget about healing and forgiveness and new age fluffy stuff. Your emotional problems will continue to stay if your physical realities such as money and job and bullying tied to your survival has problems. No amount of healing your inner child will help.10. Thus you need to think of your self as a general. Manage your resources, calculate your risk of fighting.11. Watch all the battlefield analysis documentary you can find. Like "Commanders at War" in youtube.com. Read all the war strategy book in business and life you can find. 11. Its all about strategy. Strategy let the weaker guy win. 12. War thinking gives your critical thinking. 13. Study how Spartans train up their kids, how all the tribal initiations involves beating up their kids and their kids should just smile and pretend not painful, study the Navy Seals hell week in youtube.com. 14. War thinking makes you impersonal.

2. Work hard to be the best in the market
1. You have to be the best in the market.You need to have a skill that few people can do it.Skills like programming, medicine, engineering, drawing, business etc.Getting these skills requires hard work and withstand boredom.That is why few people can do it.
And the money will go to the person who is the best in the skill.To be good in the skill you have to work at it spending long hours.
2. People want the best.You don’t have to be good in a lot of thing.But you have to be the best in one or two things.Then only people will give money for your service.3. You need to put in hard work and withstand boredom of learning and practicing to become the best.But the suffering required is much less than the suffering of being average and don’t have money.Just watch the old janitors to see how much suffering they have.4. You must study a complicated subject that few people can stand the boredom to master it.
This is the gateway that keep other people out.Like dentistry or Oracle or Digital signal processing or Labview.5. You have to have passion with the skill.Play with the skill.Dont care about other people, be with the skill constantly.It has to be mystical.6. The skill has to grow organically, slowly like wine making.Only long term being with the skill can the skill grow strong and firm.Dont be afraid being slower than others, being slow means you are growing the skill stronger than the rest. 7. Strength is important but spirit is more important.

3. Be half evil
1. Only evil can fight evil.Watch "Chronicals of Riddick" movies.Or imitate the vampires or other underworld beings. 2. Thick face, black heart. Imitate the heros Thick face means you don't care about shame and moral. It is your value.Thick face black heart is a very useful knife if you can use it.How to have Thick Face Black heart, you cannot use any visualization technique.Remember instead the hero story you have read and activate your imitation reflex.The best thick face story is the Chinese King Liu Pei in Thick Face Black Heart book.Imagine you are one of the thick face hero not affected by difficult enviroment. Thick Black Theory book. 3. To win you have to manipulate people. There is no choice. 4. By having an evil archetype in your heart, you can fight bad people naturally and with enjoyment. 5. To fight evil people, you must be “Go Lan” (rotten enough in mandarin)

4. Karate and poker.
1. Karate and Poker condences all the knowledge above and let you practice it. If you forget everything, you only need to remember these two. 2. Karate is like putting an iron rod into your lower back, even if you want to curl or collapse from fear, the iron rod won't let you. Karate is your religion. http://www.facebook.com/topic.php?uid=15675864105&topic=6462 3. Poker teach you it is good to bluff, to be half evil. Poker is the crystal of game theory. You know the secret of all human interaction.

5. Game theory.
1. This world is all about war and getting the upper hand. Sooner you know this, the better. Why conflict all of the time? Study every game theory book you know. 2. Learn the chicken game, the prisoners dilemma, the wolf sheep dynamics, how animals display without seriously injuring one another, how craziness can be beneficial, forgiveness and revenge.

6. Fight bullies and fear
1. Always fight back bullies. After you get bullied would you go to therapy to cure yourself and get bullied again tomorrow? No psychological therapy or religion can heal your anger or shame. Only fight back the bully can heal your shame. Bullies only bully people that are afraid to fight back. Bullies will stop if you fight back even if you are weaker than the bully.This is the iron rule: bully would not bully the person who fights back. 2. People seldom bully physically. They bully psychologically.They try to shame you in subtle ways. To make you get depression.Pride is like oxigen, you need it to live. Enemies attacks this.You must have no shame. You must face as thick as the wall of china.You must not let the enemy affect your emotions, this is the aim of the manipulators.
On the other hand you must affect your enemy emotion actively. Attack is the best defense. 3. Bully is actually attacking.Attacking is a form of control of you.You take away the bully control by fighting back and the bully lost interest.Bully only want easy meat. Not difficult meat. 4. It is also more difficult to be bullied when you are the best in what you do. 5. By giving into the bully, billy taught Ryan that his intimidating behavior was okay. Standing up to him early, even if it meant being beaten up, would have been better than speending a whole year in pain. Almost all bullies pick on people who wont fight back. They use intimidation and are rarely interested in real conflict. – The Survivor Personality. 6. When you submit to an aggressors or to an unjust and imposssible situation. You do not buy yourself any real peace. You encourage people to go further, to take more from you, to use you for their own purposes. They sense your lack of self respect and they feel justified in mistreating you. You must develop the opposite - afighting stance that comes from deep within and cannot be shaken. You force some respect. 7. This comes from your attitude - fearless and alwyas prepared to fight. It radiates outward and can be read in your amnner without you having to speak a word. By a paradoxical alw of human nature, trying to please people less will make them ore likely in the long run to respect and treat you better. 8.Theis inner strength, however, does not come naturally. What is required is some experience. This means that in your daily life you must assert yourself more than usual. – The 50th La. 8. There is one iron rule about bullies, they only pick on easy target, target that wont fight back, target that is afraid of the risk of fighting back. 9. There is another iron rule. Bullies stay away from people who fights back.10. Read the book "The 50th Law". Watch people that dont get bullied, they are usually people who will fight back, difficult people, the bad people, the mean people.11. Look at the animal world, its the same, even smaller, the wolverine fights back, and the wolves back off http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VoKioxH-5Q&feature=related
Almost all emotional problems are due to bullies or your skill is not best in the market. solve this by fighting back bullies, and work hard to make your skill the best. Life is simple actually. 12. when enemy detect you not afraid of dying, they wont bully you. 13. 90% of your life problems come from bullying.Bullies only attack the meek people even if the meek one is big. They dont attack aggressive one even if the fiesty one is smaller. So always fight back bullies, this is the way to protect yourself. You dont have to kill the enemy totally, but make it very unpleasant for him to take your lunch box.Watch videos of wolves afraid to bully a small wolverine in youtube or documentaries http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VoKioxH-5Q And free play, dont care about the results of your fight. Then you have no fear or regrets. And have both polarities simutaneously in your. To be evil to fight bullies and be nice to have cooperation alternately, to rest and work hard altenately in order to become the best in the market. 14. Drinking a little beer everyday make me more courageous to confront the enemy. Chinese said the liver controls the temper and courage. 15. When you fight he bully you can pretend this is playing to give your more courage.

7. Fight bullies and friends in degree
1. But you can't always start all out war with bullies in a group.Sometimes you still need to be in cooperation with a group.
So slowly invade the bully degree by degree using teasing, jokes and gentle insult. 2. Sometimes you have to use the hard way.
But know that a lot of times respect can only be gained by inviduals using fight.The process is this, fight first and only corperate and become friends.First hot war, then cold war, then friends. This is the usual process. 3. When you fight, always say "you".
Put the focus on the enemy.Push the enemy ball back to him. Never become defensive and put the focus on yourself. THe enemy tactic is to put focus on you.Read any books by David Liebermann. 4. ALways attack the bully.If you only defend, the bully control your movement and attack you at will.When you forget about defense and attack the enemy even when he is attacking you, you control the enemy.This is just like chess.5. Use the pimps method.When you are hanging out, come up with something to say to every person in the vicinity.Be ready to 'clown' someone if they question your pimpitude.Always use like or as during the 'diss'.
Only bring someone's moms in to the insult if you are ready to throw hands.CLOWN AND DISS AND BLUFF YOUR ENEMIES
6. If you play poker you will discover all bullying is a form of bluffing.You counterbluff the enemy back.You can also use bluff to boost your self confidence.7. Bluff means pretending you are more powerful than you really are.All manipulators action is actually bluffing.When they bluff you, you counter bluff the manipulators back.You can even bluff knowing that the enemy knows you are bluffing. This is call thick face bluff.Poker teaches bluffing well.8. Know the enemy is bluffing. Then the fake power of the enemy is exposed. 8. To have a really strong and respectful friendship or working relationship You cannt always be nice and polite to your friend. You sometimes have to be mean and punch your friend a little. THen only your friend will respect you and true friendship comes out. Cycle this a few times.Love and conflict are two poles, keep them both in you.You have to be balance in sane and crazy, alternately.

8. Balance and tune paradoxical opposites
1. Survivors puzzled me at first. They are serious and humoours, hard working and lazy, self confident and self critical. They are not one way or the other, they are both one way and the other. Sensitive-tough, strong-gentle, cowardly-courageous, mature-playful, humorous- serious, distant-friendly, self confident-self critical, trusting-cautious, dependent- independent, impulsive-well organized, happy-discontent, cooperative-rebellious, proud -humble, selfish-unselfish, lazy-hardwworking, involved-detached, logical-creative, calm-emotional,shy-bold, loving-angry,consistent-unpredictable,messy-net,optimistic- pessimistic - The Survivor Personality2. Men’s biggest weakness is shame.And bullies use subtle psychological manipulation to invoke shame in you.You counter shame by giving unconditional compassion for your mistakes and short coming.This is in accordance to ying and yang theory, where the weak ying actually nourishes the strong yang, yang cannot operate alone.So you are not paralyzed by shame or fear.In this world there is ying and yang. War is yang. Love and forgiveness is ying.Yang and ying must compliment and help each other. Ying will nourish yang and help yang become strong.But however mindfulness is probably much more effective. 3. Every person has some degree of personality disorder.Each personality disorder is polarity. You need to choose the right polarity for situations.For instance if you have too much stress, you are in too much obsessive compulsive disorder,you need to balance by using anti social personality disorder.If you lack self confidence having codependent personality disorder, you need to put in more narsicissitic personality disorder.Read the book Emotional Vampires by.4. Polarites means opposites in chinese ying and yang theory.Like good and bad, lazy and hard work, lies and truth, hard and soft.YOu must accept all the polarities and dont reject any.You must be able to use all the polarities because they are needed in all situations.Lacking one polarity even a bad one is like walking without left leg.You need to know how much proportion of ying and yang in any situation.This is done by tuning. Like how you tune a car or karate.5. In chaos theory, the universe is made of self similar objects.This is call fractals.For example a country ministry is just like subpersonalities in your mind.Your personal boundary is just like the border of a country.Your friends war is just war of countries.Use fractals as metaphors to understand a lot of conflicts.Country is a good fractal comparison to inter human relationship.6. How much black to use, how much white to use. This need tuning. Just like tuning a car.Or tuning oracle, or tuning your karate. Find the best combination that can combat the situation. 7. Keep two opposites together for balance for effectiveness in battle fieldMust have both polarities in your.To be evil to fight bullies and to be nice to have cooperation, alternately.To rest hard and work hard, alternately, in order to become the best in the market.

9.Free play: Work very hard then dont care about the result.

10. People admire bold, crazy and aggressive people.
1. Bullies and ordinary people will be nice to you. 2. You get promoted more easily. 3. You have power over them. 4. You win in poker this way. 5. Crazyness is actually unpredictability, a strategy detailed out by game theory.

11. Overload yourself to get stronger. Deliberate practice
1. The brain is like a plastic like. To get to the top, you need to master a lot of difficult situation, else you will always be a loser and poor. I have seen this over and over again in engineering work, there is always gate to separate the tough guys from the weaklings.
2. The only way to be tough is by getting use to difficult people and situations, don’t avoid it.3. And to make your mind and body strong you use overloading. In Shitoryu karate, the coach push you to your limit and then some more to make your muscle and nervous system stronger.4. Overloading is actually deliberate practice. Research shows to be expert in any field requires 10,000 hours of practice. 5. Deliberate practice: Keep on practicing until you become the best. 6. You practice you skill to become the best and fight bullies naturally.Deliberate practice.At first walking, playing xbox, spelling, remembering english words is very difficult, but you practice daily.Now it becomes as easy as breathing, you dont have to think about it.So it should be like this for you chosen skill, like Oracle, Labview, mathematics, quantum theory.Actually practicing is not hard work. You just spend time with it often like talking english words.So fighting the bullies is like this.At first you make mistakes but later it become easier and easier and you are insulting bullies like breathing.Your brain is like a plasticine, you mold it to a shape by constant practicing.You are what you are now because of deliberate practice applied upon you by school and parents.Now you apply deliberate practice by your own will and create what you want.Then you become best in the market, power and money flows to you. 7. karate spirit is of great importance. No matter who wins or loses, dies or stays alive, - most important is training, process, fight and the "Way" itself. When you are free from idea of winning and losing, you are immersed in the spirit of Budo and enjoy every moment of the Way, irrespective of winning or losing. Hear these words and you will become great karateka. 8. Studying and memorizing Oracle and labview was very difficult, but paradoxically make my life much more easier because I got extremely smart and life problems are easy to solve. I can easily attack my enemy also.

12. Passion
To be very good in what you do, you have to work hard. But asking you to work hard is hard to motivate you.Having passion for the work is much better.When you have passion for something, working hard is automatic, and the hardships doesnt seem to exist.
Dont falsely believe you need to find your true passion.Actually anything can be your passion. You just need to know enough of the thing and you will come to love it.You have to study the thing first and know a bit about it so it can become your passion.
Then you want to know more and more about the thing. Passion is when you want to be a master of the thing, a guru of the thing.
Like dentistry, or Oracle, or Labview.

13a.Know how to study and research complex subjects.
1. How to study a complicated book: a. Scan the book first. b. Know what is the goal of each chapter. c. Get understanding. Then dig into the details. d. Write what you don’t understand on a notebook. e. If you get stuck in a book, find another good book. f. Read good beginner books first that gives a intuitive understanding. g. Find the good books in Amazon reviews. It is very important you find a few good beginner book to read. h. This is the fastest way to memorize what you read. Everytime you read some small fact, look away and try to visualize back what you read. If you can visualize that means your brain already can remember it.
2. For subjects like Oracle, quantum theory, number mathematics, differential equations,digital signal processing, fluid mechanics. Few people can understand.Always find and read a beginner book first to build concept.Never start with a reference book first. It will kill your passion.A complicated subject is just a lot of small easy subjects combine together. 3. To study a thick book, get an overall idea first by reading quickly through the book,read the table of contents, the introduction at each chapter. Don't go into the details.Then Focus on the goal of the book, every human endeavor is trying to achieve something, if you know what is the target the details is easy.Then you read the details to get an understanding.Facts you dont understand write it down on a notebook for later solving.Then you read deeper into the details.Then You refer to other books for facts you don't understand. 4. You refer a lot of books and find a few best books that give intuitive understanding. Read through the passage a few times even if you dont understand it. Slow is smooth, smooth is fast. Like wine brewing. 5. Don't think that abstract science is dry and boring.Math or Oracle is actually a higher evolution of nature into the non material world.Looking at math pattern is the sameas looking at a forest.Reading a luminous math book that switch on the light in a dark room is the greatest joy.The patterns are beautiful. It is a different world only much more beautiful than the material world.Spend your time in the non material beauty by reading math books.Exploring math is like exploring into a beautiful forest.Upload yourself into the non material world. 6.Practice, practice, practice -A great samurai warrior, this is call drilling and is most important aspect of gaining technology. 7.Being the best is not difficult.As long as you know how to read and write you can be the expert in any field like Oracle or number theory;
learning these is easier than English.You need to be constant be with it. Let it soak in to you like language osmosis.You have to love it. 8. You dont have to criticize yourself for learning slow or listen to other people. Because all brain neurons have the same molecules and require the same time for all humans to rewire itself.We are slower learners compared to other people, but once we learned something we are much better than other people.Refer to our programming, karate, and math.It seems like our brain performs comprehensive rewiring and it takes more time than other people.Good wine need a long time to brew, you cannot rush it, and the wine we brew is the best.So don’t worry, start slow, don’t care about other people, enjoy yourself in your object like Oracle,
know the beauty of it, this is what life all about. 9. Always go back to basic. Refer kihon in karate. 10. Do the sample exam questions because this gives you a focus, like a tunnel drilling machines. Buy selftestsoftware for Oracle.

13b.Know how to study and research complex subjects. – Handle big projects
1. a. Break it down to smaller parts. b. Pretend that the job is easy. c. Perform a task to 80 percent perfection. If you aim for 100 percent, you will have trouble starting and fear of failure. d. Push your limits. go outside of human norm.This make your stronger because your brain is plastic. e. Reframe fear as a challenge. The bigger the fear, the bigger the excitement. f. Do one thing at a time. 2.The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr. The now habit by Neil Fiore

13c.Know how to study and research complex subjects - Know how to research and solve problems
Have an edge over other people. Use internet search engine like Google or Yahoo. Ask questions about life in internet forums like Oracle forum or Low Yatt forum.Use Amazon.com search engine and type in the book related to your problems.Read the reviews in Amazon, it has a lot of details about the book.Use Singapore library search engine to find the good book in Amazon. Reserve the book.Search the rapidshare or bit torrent for free copy of the book.

14. Work hard, play hard
1. You work the hardest, then you play hard to recharge, and make you enjoy work hardest again. 2. This is a cycle. A paradoxical opposite again. Ying and yang.

15. Hacking: Immerse your life in abstract subject.
1. Then there is no boredom. Life is a adventure everyday. You go into a blissful state. You are playing with toys forever. Work is play. You dont have to fix to one subject you can be an expert in many subjects. Refer to Iron Man movie. 2. Oracle, network security, Labview, Linux, quantum theory, computational fluid mechanics, ocean wave mechanics, weather differential equations, number theory, Lisp, C++, control system, Go, chess, bridge, backgammon, western philosophy eg Roger Scruton, poetry, karate.

16. Dont believe in things that doesnt work
1. Like putting your head in a hole in the middle of a battlefield. I wasted 20 years on this. 2. New age, pop psychology, religion, inner child healing, mindfulness, rebirthing, deep breathing, yoga, buddhism, christianity, god, meditation, nirvana, no ego, enlightenment, avaita, zen, visualization, relaxation, aikido, NLP, positive thinking, positive psychology, self esteem, ayn rand, forgiveness, let it go, feel your feelings, being open, being in the now, primal therapy, trauma therapy, childhood therapy, afterworld, acupuncture, EFT, rapid eye therapy, Kinesiology, self healing. 3. Don’t think that if you meditate enough, you reach nirvana and don’t need for money, status or anything. Read the hypocritical life of spiritual gurus in Stripping the Gurus book.

17.Have a big tank to put in suffering and not bothered by it.
1. All successful people have a capacity for more suffering than the average person. Just look at the generals and top scholars stories, they make huge mistakes yet they carry on. Successful people are the ones that make most mistakes and carry on. Because mistakes give them experience required for expert knowledge. 2. Imagine you have a big space in your self to put in suffering and not bothered by it. This is detachment best visualized. 3. Put your past regrets and mistakes into the big tank. Dont try to erase the regrets to protect your vanity, leave the regrets unmolested and let them be.

Misc
1. Vit B can usually instantly cure your fatigue, depression, anxiety. But if you eat too much, you cant sleep and you have muscle ache. So eat for 3 days, stop for 4 days or so. Before exam don’t eat for 2 days because you may have problem sleeping. At the morning of the exam, eat it for energy and aggressive brain. 2. Muscle ache in the necks and shoulders are caused by muscle knots. Press all over your neck, scalp and shoulder to find pain when press down or hard spots. After you find the painful spot, press down hard on the spot for at least half minute. The muscle in spasm can only relax with great pressure for more than half minute. The bone at scalp and shoulder blades are usually the muscle knot areas. 3. Garlic can cure cancer and bird flu and fatigue, eat a lot of it. 4. There are chi kung and meditation that can make you no need for food and drinks for months. Check out the internet for yogis who don’t have to eat. This is important during environmental disasters and war in your time. 5. If you have cancer, eat garlic and do chi kung. 6. A lot of times your mental problem is due to lack of water. Drink a cup of water. 7. Good sayings: If you dont work what would you do? The good point of technology is once you know it you will never lose it. Face fear, conquer fear, be feared. If he do it, why cant you do it?


(Books you must read)
The 50th Law by Robert Greene
How to manipulate the manipulator by Saoud Mualla.
The dip by Seth Godin
Outliers by Malcome Gladwell
Deliberate Practice by Geoff Govin

(Polarity and half evil)
The Survivor personality by Al Siebert.
The art of always being right by Schopenhauer, Arthur
Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu.
The above we have articles in freedrive.com, portable harddrive and print outs.

(Strategy)
The 33 strategies of war by Robert Greene.
Beyond Revenge. The Art of Strategy. Any game theory book. Any strategy book.
Any books by A.C. Grayling, or Roger Scruton.
Commanders at war in youtube.

(Shame and Covert war)
Thick face black heart by Chin Nin Chu
The pimp game by Mickey Royal
How to be a pimp article. In our portable drive.
Top dog bottom dog by Robert Karen
Emotional vampires by Albert Bernstein
How to save your marriage without talking about it by Steven Stosny
I dont want to talk about it by Terence Real
How full is your bucket by Tom Rath
Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men by Lundy Bancroft
Get anyone to do anything by David Lieberman

(Be the best in the Market)
The dip by Seth Godin
Jack Trout on strategy by Jack Trout
Deliberate practice, Talent is overated by Geoff Colvin
The power of full engagement by Jim Loehr.
The now habit by Neil Fiore
Play by Stuart Brown
Free play by Setphen Nachmanovitch

(No new age bullshit)
Stripping the gurus by Geoffrey D. Falk
Top Secret: The Truth Behind Today's Pop Mysticisms by Robert M. Price

(Tech books)
The poker mindset by Matthew Hilger
Heads-Up No-Limit Hold 'em by Collin Moshman
Every hand reviewed by Gus Hansen.
Poker vide in youtube like High Stakes Poker

Digital Signal Processing 101: Everything you need to know to get started by Michael Parker
Differential Equations - by Paul Blanchard available in Singapore library.
Div, Grad, Curl, and All That: An Informal Text on Vector Calculus, by H. M Schey
Who Is Fourier?: A Mathematical Adventure by Lex Tokyo, Yo Sakakibara, and Alan Gleason

Digital Signal Processing 101: Everything you need to know to get started by Michael Parker

Schrodinger's Kittens and the Search for Reality: Solving the Quantum Mysteries by John Gribbin
Deep down things: The breath taking beauty of particle physics by Bruce Schumm. Fearless Symmetry.

http://www.jbmelectronics.com/product/tcp.htm on networking also available in our portable drive
Computer networking first step by Wendell Odom
Networking, a beginner guide by Bruce Hallberg
Linux System Administration by Vicki Stanfield singapore libraries
UNIX Systems Programming by Kay A. Robbins
C Programming Language by Brian W. Kernighan, Dennis M. Ritchie
C++ without fear by Brian Overland Get it on freedrive.com user login as your mom.
Modern Operating Systems by Andrew Tanenbaum
Counter hack by Edward Skoudis

Always use Selftestsoftware Study Guides to pass certification exams.
Head first SQL by Head First SQL by Lynn Beighley
Easy Oracle PL/SQL programming by John Garmany
Oracle 11g for dummies
Sams Teach yourself PLSQL in 21 days
Oracle SQL Tuning by Dan Tow
The art and science of Oracle Performance tuning
Oracle Performance Tuning for 10gR2 by Gavin JT Powell
Oracle SQL high performance tuning by Guy Harrison