Garlic the wonder drug

super flu killer. cure cancers and chronic fatique syndrom, even can make a dead rabbit penis comes up

poker and war is about guestimate what the opponents wants to do not what you want to do

and other misc thoughts:

show sean photo about drinking water
push the extra mile
or instead of c++ can play with database immediately
download freedrive best books.
defend yourself by attacking back
muka tebal is a value not method, melay word sounds thicker
you have only one life, talke high risk. experience
a man got to do what a man got to do
get the steps right, set great striving first, then only paradoxical relaxation. relax your mind consicously while carrying out the task already set forward.
focus, remember you have limited time and energy.
i discover that i focus on things i dont like due to some reason. refocusing need some effort but it is a small effort compared to the disruptions of thinking on things i dont like.
note making put complex things down in perspecive and in a small model universe your brain can think about. 
use aggro to fight aggro, use crazy to fight crazy
dont care about small loses poker
compact light mobile nimble
break it down simplify note making
other thing beside oracle is ROV

After playing no limit texas holdem, now playing limit holdem is like taking candy from baby

A lot of times i dont have cards, but are guessing what the opponent is thinking, and are mimiking strong cards behavior. Limit holdem players are losers.

Ace on the river we have the pdf copy is a very good book. Please check freedrive.com and our family portable drive.

Instead of a explorer I would rather be a pirate

A pirate have both the best world of explorer and self defense.

Money = suffer, No money = more suffer

When have problems always go to internet forum to ask

When you have difficulties, always go to internet forums to ask for people opinion

here is a good one
http://forum.lowyat.net/

There are karate forums, oracle forums, physics forums, math forums, marine forums,

Stripping the gurus a very important book

So you wont waste your life as I did

free pdf here http://www.strippingthegurus.com/

I want my tombstone to read "Explorer"

The best way to get out of a bad mood to find new things to explore

It works everytime, the other stuff dont work like thinking what i have already achieve, or counting my blessings, or detachment, or mindfulness, or goal setting etc.


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Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!
Rocky Balboa

I hated every minute of training, but I said, "Don't quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion."
Muhammad Ali

The 30 million dollars callibration test

If i have 30 million dollars. I spent 3 million dollars screwing the most good looking girls, travelled the world 3 times, ate the best food, bought the best sport car. WIth 27 million dollars left and 30 years of time to spend, how would i spend the rest of my life?


I choose between wei qi, oracle, driving harley, poker. But all this thing i know, and it is boring.

So i may try number theory, quantum theory, or even ROV.

This is a calibration test to find out what you really want to do. I love you Sean and Ryan.

The all knowing invincible field of nature

There seems to be a invincible and invincible field of nature that knows what is your knowledge and what are you doing. I dont know how it works.

I have two big stage in life 17-35 is the year I believe in mystical Buddhist/hindu type enlightenment. I have trying to search for this eternal bliss stage using all the methods i can find, i forget  about my studies of mathematics and engineering, resulting in lost grades and low income career. In the end of the search, i concluded solidly this is all bullshit logically, practically and philosophically. Please read Stripping the Gurus by Geoffrey D. Falk. We have the PDF.


18 years wasted. My abstract world knowledge of mathematics, physics and engineerign is a waste land. And people seems to know this. I cannot find good jobs.

3-6 years ago is the early Renaissance where i delve into c++, game programming, poker and poetry.

Just last year is the year I called true Renaissance, i delve into advance calculus, partial differential equations, quantum mechanics, fluid mechanics, digital signal processing, computational fluid mechanics, western philosophy, embedded linux, and Oracle. Now probably going into ROV science.

And now somehow my company seems to think i am very smart, which probably i am, i am the only one who can do more more abstract programming and write hell good official letters with bombastic but paradoxically beautiful and subtle english. BUt it could be the field of all knowing nature.

Even if you dont tell people, people around seem to able to pick up what is on your mind, and your knowlege level.

I notice somehow I am evoving from my father

I just realize my knowledge crystal is to correct the two most big mistake my father makes and is in me, probably in you and ryan also

1. Being too feminine, too soft, dont know how to confront people
2. Being too lazy.

My two biggest knowledge crystal is:

1. Karate (possibly the book freedom from fear)
2. The dip by seth godin.

I have been all along trying to correct the sin our father and myself.

My father though totally selfish himself but is unaware, is constantly taken advantage by other people. This is where Poker comes in.

Oracle is the push into the abstract world which my father never venture into due to inbreed laziness.

Upload yourself to the abstract mathematics

Sean, Ryan, we are explorers, we can't stick still to a regular job. If we are not exploring, we are eaten up by everyday pettiness that reruns the same thing over and over again, hell.

Sean, Ryan, you have big eyes looking around always for intresting things, you two cant sit still.

So now I have mastered the material world, what's left is quantum mechanics, number theory, ROV sonars mathematics. Oracle i have eaten all and is finished.  I am staying in the KNOWN material world too long, I notice everyday I think about all the petty politics over and over again, which is not fun. Nature which is elvoving to more and more complex being, wants to evolve into the non material world, the abstract world, if I dont explore there nature will punish me with boredom and in turn flashback.

I will upload myself to the mathematics world. My body is living in this world, there is no escape. But my mind can either live in this world, or live in the abstracted world created by my mind and the minds of others. I can choose where I live. I choose to live in the abstract world, cause this world is too boring.

Nature rewards the most complex and evolve being. The more abstract your brain wiring, the more money you get generally. Look at the doctors, oracle dbas, physicist, the harder to know the job, the more money. Keep exploring and understanding, gradually you will come to the abstract world, a lot of people will stop evolving here, you continue to evolve into the abstract world to escape boredom, and nature will recognize this, the money will come naturally.

Take pain like a man

I think nowadays there are no more rites of manhood, and young men become like sissies, I am one.

In west Africa, young boys are whipped across the chest cutting the flesh, and have to smile to show they can handle pain like a man. The boys who cannot smile are considered weak and will not get girlfriends. The ability to handle pain and suffering is important in order to lead the tribe through hardships, as a man.

I have to be reeducated to be a man also; I joined a more traditional style karate school, the sensei holds a 5 feet stick and shout at the students to do horse stance until unbearable pain. If the student stood up, he will whack the student with the stick and shouts constant humiliation. For the more senior student, he will punch them on the chest and stomach, a karate punch with about 5% power is enough to knock out a layman. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MciLrVWcP8w

I was whacked on the butt countless times, and experienced excruciating pain punched on the solar plexus. But after that, hell, it was being hardened psychologically with steel. You got a problem ah? Come loh. Pain and suffering ah? Come loh! Things that bothered me before lessened a great deal.

More about the peyton quinn book

The book is based on Quinn's actual experiences as a high school math teacher, bouncer in a biker bar and creator of a successful software development firm. He is internationally recognized in the self-defense trainer and security industries for his research into the affects of adrenal stress conditioning. 

Biker, bouncer, math, software development = i like.


Whether dealing with a street thug or an overbearing boss at work, you're facing a bully. Your body and your mind will react to the threat. Unfortunately, many people involuntarily send the message that they are safe to attack. Learn how this process works so you can take control of this process and instead of signaling that you are a good victim, send messages that prevents conflict.

Freedom from Fear: Taking Back Control of Your Life and Dissolving Depression by Peyton Quinn

Maybe a extremely important book. Order it 2 days shipping from Amazon today. Could solve 99 percent of life problems.

The other very important book is The Dip.

Deliberate practice

http://www.hooversbiz.com/2009/03/04/deliberate-practice-in-a-nutshell/


Sean, Ryan, to make your life happy, just do the following most important things in order of priority, the rest of the treasure chest is minor details:

1. Karate : Super confidence and dominance. A must.
2. Deliberate practice: Read The Dip book, the market wants the best. Another must.
3. Poker: Game theory. Chronicals of Riddick. Thick skin, black heart.
4. Oracle : The biggest toy.



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The dip as experienced by cool Malaysians

Folks,

You can get drown in a lake of average depth of 3 inches. The average might be 3 inches but where you stand might be 10 feet deep.

It is VERY SIMPLE. If you want to make a lot of money, do not be AVERAGE. You need to be SPECIAL in some way and fashion. You need to have HIGHLY VALUABLE skill and capability.

Now, remember, there are competition out there. So, if you make a lot of money, a lot of people want your job too. So, you probably need to have

A) TALENT

You can learn and do easily compare to others

B) Great effort

Work very hard to keep up your skill and capability

C) Exposure

For certain area, you need to be in right environment to pick up those skills.

This is the same as running a business too. You need to have COMPETITIVE ADVANTAGE.

So, think of yourself as a business of selling hours for money.

Dreamer


http://forum.lowyat.net/topic/908181/+460

Five star concept building book: Computer Networking First-Step by Wendell Odom

Few books are as perfect than this book. Except maybe Headfirst sql, or Who Is Fourier, or that partial differential equation I forgot the name book.

Accept about 20 percent of suffering

Accept a little bit suffering to get more fun.

Watch taboo series in Okto about fight club.There is a tribe in africa where they hit eachother with whips, but the recepient must smile and not show pain then only he can be a man and have the strength to face difficulty in the future.

Karate is about touching the chaos of violence but simultaneously maintaining extreme control.

Visualize what you study to burn into your memory

After you study something, say Oracle function, close the book, and then try to visualize what you study, if you can visualize that means what you study has been burn into your memory, your eprom.

possible to play with Oracle database with you are 13

Instead of playing with c++ or game programming. Because database is fun too!

First play with making a table and inserting data into it.

Then learn plsql a little bit.

Then play lots of sql tuning, like tuning a car model.

If i have time i will teach you sean and ryan how to play when you are 7.

Accept suffering

If I accept suffering, all my mental talk cease, i become less stress.

I have avoided legitimate suffering, but i suffered ten times more suffering as a result.

So, study hard, put in the hard work, make yourself top in your field, maybe Oracle, accept legitimate suffering, so you will have more happiness as a result.

Half fight suffering, half accept legitimate suffering.

The perfect stress therapy.

Always use the internet forums for help in all sectors

In your technological life, you will face a lot of technical difficulty. And internet forums is a very useful way to solve your difficulty. Usually in working life your colleagues would not want to teach you. The IT forums are most helpful, that why i recommend you to go into Oracle for this world market.

Even for other life questions like karate and strategy you can ask the internet forums.

There is a paid forum which is very good if the ordinary forums cannot help you with tough questions like GPRS or wavecom programming: http://www.experts-exchange.com/. I use it to bail out my very tough technical difficulties few people in the world can solve. The payment is only about S$20 a month.

How to make goals

1. Small goals
2. Reachable within 1 year
3. specific and concrete

Goals 2010

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Famous SQL tuning blog March 15
Labview SQL Metocean software April 15
KL rental house Sept 15

Run, dont walk - A linux guru

Get excited about life. Feel the excitement of rushing. Forget about your regrets and hurts. Make mistake, stumble, take risk.

The awareness as true self system

Usually use by hindus, saying that awareness is true self. This statement is a assertion and is philosophically unsound, i can say that my thumb is my true self using the same philosophical argument. Instead, the assertion is more like a method to detached from the many self in a person, and is a method that works.

Another way is to pretend you are another self A and prentend the self B that is causing the problem is not really yourself.

Philosophy is all about pretend. It is a game. Described by Wittenstein.

The half half system

Half awareness identity, half ego identity
Half attachment, half detachment
Half good, half bad
Half faith, half fear
Half goal, half process

I am trying to find this one method one principle

Now I got a cocktail of principles. I am searching for that one principle.

Faith not fear

Being too scientific and logical brings fear and nihilism. Nihilism is the ultimate end of scientific reasoning. I live in fear because I am a extremely logical person. I think to avoid death and thus live in fear of death.

I need faith I need art.

Faith not fear

Being too scientific and logical brings fear and nihilism. Nihilism is the ultimate end of scientific reasoning. I live in fear because I am a extremely logical person.

I need faith I need art.

It is very important to have a thick skin

You can do much more things in life. To have a thick skin remember you are not the center of the universe.