30 09 12 11pm thoughts are external not me, but me is a thought also, then it is external belonging to waves of thoughts, what is left inside my body, nothing.  Myself isnt really me,it is thoughts waves from outside touching this body. I am external to this body. The self that realize this is the external thinking self, there is no real self, no center. This is discovered during meditation havent practiced for one year

Strength does not come from winning

Your struggles develop your strength

Every move there is a counter move like a chess puzzle to be solved.
View people and work through the spectacles of chess else you might forgetfully put on the specs of victim.

Bluff is the essence of fighting.

Knowledge Crystal 16 Sep 12 Dragon

Karate

You must be willing to fight everyday

You must be willing to work hard everyday

Fight Bullies

The pain of fighting bullies and friends everyday is less than being bullied everyday.

Fight means attack, if you fight bullies, they will stop.

Fighting have risk of lost, but the risk is less painful, so you have to take it.

Imagine yourself brave. This is the same as being brave.

Your limbic system is probably conditioned, that is why you feel fear when fighting.

Use mindfulness to allow will to overcome limbic conditioning.

Put your attention to hara, it will sink fear.

Reframe pain as karate, mountain climbing, surfing. Pain vitalizes you, gives a rush.

Make peace with your shit, so you wont be bothered by bully, and fight relaxed.

Bluff is the essence of fighting

Cant punch or scold bullies, so use trash talk and tease to unbalance their emotion.
Use bluff in trash talk, speak the untrue.
Always use "you" in trash talk. 

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Like Go game, use sacrifice as your weapon.

Strength does not come from winning
Your struggles develop your strenght

Karate: Remember only it

Thick Black Theory: Why all heroes have thick face black heart

Game Theory:  Can predict people

Sun Tzu: Win even when weak

Work Hard

You need to have status in order to be happy, nature programmed you.

The only way to achieve high status is working hard to be the best.

You have to imagine you have passion for the  subject.

Practice practice practice on it everyday. Expertise is memory from experience. 

Separate the subject from the enemies so the subject wont be polluted. 

Confidence is giving whatever you are doing the entirely of your effort not caring result.

Misc

Vit B: To stabilize your mind from fear and anger. To make you confident.

Lung Dang Tsao: Nurture liver is the king of health.

Backnobber: Press hard into your painful spot for one minute.

Life after death: Watch youtube for near death experience.

Brainfitness Pro: Boost your brain

No religion, enlightenment: Read Stripping The Gurus book for “enlightened people” acting badly.

Books

The 50^th Law

The Fighter’s Mind

The Dip

The Now Habit